KGB420

I was cleaning out some old emails this morning. This was written for me in honor of 4/20 by the most special girl I have ever had the pleasure of knowing, a short while before she dropped off the face of the planet for an entire year to have another man's baby.

The curse of human existence is that no matter how overwhelmingly connected to someone you feel, they can disappear in an instant, either by choice or by circumstance. I post this only as a reminder to treasure your significant others while they're still around.

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1. It is so cute when my lover is just so about grammar, I love it!

2. Survival skills. I know he can keep me safe in any situation.

3. He likes to read. I can count the men I know that read on one hand. Sexy!

4. Ooh, all his sexy hair. God I love that!!

5. I love the way he whispers sweet things in my ear when we are making love.

6. The way he places his hand on my back when we walk together, claiming ownership, and making me feel safe.

7. He likes chinese food.

8. I love the way he whispers dirty naughty things in my ear when we are making love.

9. Sometimes he texts me song lyrics, and I think thats sweet.

10. He makes me learn new things. I love learning new things.

11. I love it when hes mad at me and has to bite the inside of his cheeks to keep from smiling at me.

12. He rarely yells.

13. Its cute when he changes the topic to distract me from something he doesn't want to discuss.

14, He is excellent at sharing things with me so we can both benefit and enjoy them together.

15. He likes star trek.

16. He lets me rub him down, i love running my hands all over his body.

17. He is very nearly always right.

18. He understands what i am thinking and feeling, sometimes before even I do.

19. Hiking is a fun activity to him.

20. He respects the fine balance between being together, and having some alone time.

21. He turns me into a dripping slut, and uses me well.

22. He will protect me.

23. There doesn't seem to be a topic he doesn't know at least something about.

24. He encourages me.

25. I love it when my lover plays the big strong man act...but we both know underneath it all he's a big softy! shhh i didn't say that.

26. He is mindful of his effect on the planet, and the atmosphere...but is not a freak about it.

27. I love how he always knows exactly how to touch me, I don't ever have to ask for something to be harder, or softer.

28. He knows how and when to push me, and when to drop something instinctively.

29. He lets me be his little girl.

30. My lover always surprises me. I am constantly learning new things about him that make me change how I see him.

31. He is so ambitious, he has dreams...he doesn't just hope to be a safeway clerk one day.

32. I love his magical fingers.

33. He takes the time to explain things to me instead of just brushing me off.

34. My lover has gorgeous eyes.

35. I love how he lightly brushes my cheek.

36. Hes an amazing kisser.

37. Even though I sometimes complain...he is a great driver.

38. My lover can melt me with a single sentence, sometimes a single word.

39. He knows when to engage in a battle, and when to bite his tongue, and is not dumb enough to be goaded into compromising that.

40. As logical as my honey is, sometimes he has the most illogical thoughts in that brain of his...and that makes me smile.

41. He knows the difference between law and order, SVU, criminal intent, and csi...and knows the characters.

42. I always feel protected and safe when i am with him.

43. Even though my lover can instruct me on most things, he respects my intelligence enough to listen when I know about something he does not...that melts me.

44. He humors me by answering baby name questions, even though he doesn't want to.

45. He shares his music, and listens to mine, even though we don't agree.

46. He ALWAYS makes sure im satisfied, hes an amazing lover.

47. I love the way he looks at me. His love reflected in his gaze.

48. He knows that we both may like different things, and he doesn't trample on the things i like even if they don't thrill him.

49. My lover is the sexiest man alive.

50. Even though my lover sometimes avoids talking about things, he never shies away from declaring his love.

51. He had an hour long conversation about hot star trek chicks or lack thereof, and he liked it.

52. He understands the things that make my brain spin, and he knows how to explain them to me slowly and in annaspeak.

53. His hands, in addition to being amazing, are aesthetically pleasing.

54. He keeps me on my toes.

55. Even as soon as the first night together, i felt safe...and cared about.

56. My lover seems to enjoy showing me new things, It brings me pleasure to experience things for the first time with him.

57. When we make love he is both rough, and incredibly gentle simultaneously.

58. He likes to travel.

59. My lover keeps his mind enriched, its a turn on.

60. Theres this one look he has on his face when he thinks whatever im doing is so priceless...i love that look.

61. I love being on top of him.

62. He has the most adorable, and sexy eye lashes.

63. 63 is my favorite number, and my lovers cock, is my favorite cock!!

64. Holy fuck 101 is a lot of things to think about, I hope I'm not boring you...when I am with my lover I never feel as though he is bored of me...he ALWAYS patiently listens even if he should be bored.

65. He always vocalizes what he wants, or likes...I hate it when guys are unable to do so.

66. He expects me to obey his requests, yet he takes my objections or modifications to them under consideration... he is under control, but not a tyrant.

67. Hes secretly quite the romantic. Maybe even more so than i am

68. He likes video games.

69. Although 69 is not my favorite number, if we are celebrating 420 we may as well celebrate 69...it is always a joy to have my lovers cock in my mouth.

70. He is very poetic, i love his words.

71. Our making love is always just that, making love.

72. He seems to do a lot of things he doesn't necessarily want to, in order to please me...even though it isnt his job, I appreciate that.

73. He has amazing potential, I believe in the man he will eventually become every bit as much as I love him just as he is.

74. Even though I suspect he does it to amuse me...he has the cutest exasperated look on his face whenever I mention walmart.

75. He is worried about how i see him. And attempts to keep me from looking at him in a bad way, this is extremely cute.

76. I love it when he shares his day with me.

77. My lover could keep me the healthiest I have ever been.

78. He asks my opinion on things, that makes me feel valued.

79. I like it when he corrects me on things. He does it in a nice way, and helps me to become better.

80. I love the way he holds my hand.

81. He puts up with me repeating boring things over and over.

82. Although half the time he causes it...he lets me get away with being emotional and illogical at times.

83. He makes me smile.

84. He makes me laugh.

85. i love how i feel for him, the strong feelings i have that i have never had before.

86. I could never stay mad at him for longer than 2 days tops!

87. Every thing he does makes me fall in love with him just a little bit more.

88. He seems to think its cute when i have ideas or thoughts that turn out to be faulty...and instead of being rude about them he gently guides me to the correct epiphany.

89. He has the most perfect lips...every woman should just find themselves drooling and staring at them in anticipation of a kiss.

90. He is fun in a shower!

91. My lover isnt a fan of sharing "feelings" and would just assume not have huge discussions about things that to him are probably silly...but when he can tell its really important to me he does it anyways.

92. He thinks for himself, and doesn't go along with the crowd.

93. Although he thinks for himself and doesn't go along with the crowd, he hides his hand and can have the appearance of going along with the crowd. He doesn't see a point in fighting everyone and everything..I think that is smart, and smart = sexy!

94. My lover is smart, and smart=sexy :P

95. I LOVE the way he feels when he slides into me for the first time...well and every time :P but you know what i mean.

96. Although sometimes I come around slowly...he does his best to show me that he is not my past, everything about him is nothing like what i have experienced before...i would do good to remember that.

97. He has shown me that I have this amazing capacity for love I never knew I was capable of...I will be grateful for that always.

98. He has taught me the pure joy of giving yourself to someone else, I love that too.

99. He has shown me that amazing sex, and amazing love CAN go hand and hand and arent exclusive of each other.

100. Fuck yeah finally at 100!! What a project He protects me...yes I said this already...but its important, and also he protects me from even himself. He is afraid to hurt me or damage me...and goes against his own wants in order to protect me from it.

101. My lover keeps me stimulated, mentally, sexually, spiritually...he stimulates me in all possible ways.

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Sir-Ex

It's not a curse man. It's a blessing.



Let go and let it flow. You too shall pass.

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Ditch the cigs!!!!!!

KGB420

Nope, definitely not a blessing to live with a false sense of security.

I have let it go, and I find comfort in other things besides my own death.

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Sir-Ex

I suppose the curse was you believing in a false sense of security..


That's not really a state of human existence.

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Ditch the cigs!!!!!!

KGB420

No it's not, but suffering and impermanence are.

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Sir-Ex

Suffering is something most animals experience, and impermanence is a colder way of saying transience, which is natural in the universe. None of these are unique to humans, nor should they be considered a curse.




You should amend this statement of

'no matter how overwhelmingly connected to someone you feel, they can disappear in an instant'

to

'no matter how overwhelmingly connected to someone you feel, they will disappear in an instant'

in your mind.

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Ditch the cigs!!!!!!

Buds Bundy

yep....that made me depressed


time 4 a bowl

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eldizle

too long, didn't read.

lighten up.

Qui-Bong Jinn

People come and people go, that's part of life.

Cerpin Taxt

You are inflicting this pain on yourself at this point. Why do you do it?

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Step Back. Evaluate. Recognize.

"All memory is really a form of regurgitation of undigested experience."
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KGB420

Too short, didn't care.

It's all good though. MellowLady and I are together now, and she's beyond amazing.

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yes, i always sell phones by waking up idiot families and burning babies with milk...NO

Sir-Ex

help yourself to a couple

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Ditch the cigs!!!!!!

Sir-Ex

(whoever you are)

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fenderbender

Good post my friend.

I thank you for it


attachment is a problem i run into frequently. I know these things, yet i end up getting attached regardless. Im getting better at letting it go quicker but damn does it suck.

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KGB420

Not bad man Reminds me of my first summer job at McD's when I was 16. The manager graduated from my high school when I was still a sophomore, but remembered me since I usually hung out with the seniors anyway. He put me on his closing shift, and every night we would chill in the playland ball pit with a chick who was also on the same shift, and get baked together! Then we'd bust ass and get our work done. Those late night smoke sessions made that place tolerable.

Then came Fletcher. Yes, that was his real name, and the poor fucker was somewhere in between neurotic and just totally whacked out. One relevant example would be the time there were 5-6 of us working in the back... pretty close quarters, but we've all got our work cut out for us... except for Fletcher. Evidently he didn't have anything to do at that particular moment the rest of us were busting ass, so he took a seat... ON THE FUCKING FLOOR RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF THE GRILL AREA! Yeah, uh, it was definitely a WTF moment, one of several from him actually.

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fenderbender

say what

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