Mercury

I got a long distance phone call from an old friend whom I haven't seen or spoken with for many months. That is a long time considering I used to not go a week without being in his presence. During this phone call we were catching up and although he hadn't changed much there was still much to be divulged about our inner feelings.

He told me he was gaining weight and depending more and more on his guitar for happiness and I told him I was losing my job and hadn't been going out very often.

Then I said this: "It seems like all I have to look forward to these days is when I go out to eat".

He affirmed that basically summed up his life at that point as well. We concluded that we mostly sat around the house until our stomachs began to growl in the late afternoon or evening and then we would journey out to get food and then it's back home to wait for sleep.

It's not terrible, really, just a sincere observation that exposes the monotony of day to day living. Just having someone to say it to seemed to make it all right. All things said, I do miss him.

Edit: please add your own observations of monotonous day to day living. I find them very romantic.

Black

that sucks bro but its not uncommon for getting food to be a center point of ones day.
its been like that for centuries, eating is just awesome.

have any hobbies currently? if not, get some. i personally produce music, play hockey, jog (a lot, for stamina ) workout, clean (with music it can be fun), i have a company on the run that takes up some time and ya basically without those few things life would be boring as fuck.

basically, hobbies are key. good luck finding balance.

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stonerkid

i know what you guys are sayin, shit's depressin'.

i spend a lotta time by my self seeing as i dont go to school and live far from town, shit is pretty much bordem sunday with depression sprinkles

so i grow mushrooms and weed and salvia and talk to my dogs
shit im a fucking looser

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Canuck Wisdom

There are lots of fun things to do, I bet you could come up with ten off the top of your head. Such as going to the zoo, a new restaurant, seeing a movie, a walk in a new park. Exploring a new town if you have a car, a picnic, etc etc.

But really, I can say all of those things and they still just don't sound too enticing do they?

Its a mild depression. You can fill the time and space with hobbies and self-improvement, which would make you even more fertile and ready for what I am about to say, but what you really need to make any of those many activities you can easily come up with fun... is someone special to do them with.

Its really a shame that they don't teach us about how to build relationships in school, or give us a way to build confidence in flirting, to understand what it really is and why it needs to work that way, but they don't. You know these things intrinsically inside yourself, you just need to make yourself more and more fertile to accepting them. Self improvement etc will do just that. But if your already fertile enough, its a seed you need. A special someone.

Remember everyone, new friends, cute girls, they are all just people with flaws and insecurities like you, no matter how perfect their exterior looks, and if you remember that it will be easier to plant that new seed when you find it.

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stonerkid

thanks canuck!!
that was cool

i wish i met more cruisers then i do but a small population on a big island dont help much
i am jus makin excuses thou....


i am fucking depressed man, your the second person to tell me that in like a week. this is also the second time ive seriosuly thought about me being depressed........... .........

ans its depressing.
fuck

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Canuck Wisdom

Well, don't take the perspective that your sick. Take the perspective that your have potential stress to kill, and when that is done (responsibilities) space to self-improve and increase your self-image (constructive, not destructive things like getting drunk, but make something, dig a garden, learn a skill etc) and when you start to feel really good about that your more than 'fertile'.

I feel I have some insight because I have just recently gone through a transition in my life and all these thoughts have been running through my head before I even came to this thread. Or rather, I have been living the awareness of my transition towards fertility.

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osirus2020

That's really insightful, man. Thanks.

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tedkennedy

when everything else sucks there is still food, im guilty. when i am bummed out i will usually crave sugar or icecream as a last ditch attempt to have any sort of good happy feeling. lately i have been making bread when i am lonely and its somewhat therapeutic just doing something constructive with my time so that at least i have a topic of conversation if i do talk with people.

my little advice to you is, instead of going out, make food yourself and it can become a social activity that brings people together.

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José

oh yea? well the high point of my day is going to bed. lol almost. going to bed is always a good thing to me, because it usually means I have somewhere nice to sleep. i like drifting off into my own world for 10 hours.

doing physical activities is really fun too, so is getting girls numbers. I strive for new social goals err day. Make it happen.