Mydriasis

So my mental disorder make me uncredable? You would think that because I'm still normal today I'd be a valid resource if anyone else. I get what your saying, but my life is far from normal. My genetic displacement dicked me over, and so did the course of actions I've taken in my life(lot's of physical and mental stress). I doubt PositiveVibez is in that large of an off-set.

I know people who have simply done cocaine then a week later tried to burn and had panic attacks. It's all about mind-set. Repeatidly not dealing with stress in your life will make your crazier then cannabis ever could.

al-Mu'akhkhir

Psychology is far from black and white... Just because you're schizophrenic doesn't mean your opinion is unaccredited. To quote John F. Nash, "As a crazy person looking at other crazy people, you always want to believe that you, yourself are not crazy." Nash was crazy as hell and he obtained a Nobel prize for his work in game theory..

All I'm saying is that if I were him (the op) I wouldn't "play with my sanity". From the sound of it, the amount of mental and physical distress he experiences from smoking pot indicate to me that he's headed down a very slippery path.

To reiterate: STOP SMOKING WEED.

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fenderbender

dude you just smoked three blunts and you got paranoid and anxious...

thats odd?
shit happens when you get real high.

dont smoke as much and stop working yourself up and convincing yourself that your gonna have a "bad trip" everytime you blaze.

smoke small amounts of weed and relax

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PositiveVibez

Its not that big of a problem.
I just want to be able to enjoy being high and not be consumed by my thoughts.

Kishar

maybe you should stop thinking about being high and do things to keep your mind occupied.
i enjoy going out to the shed take a few rips jump on the tractor and mow the lawn or i have a garden so i like going out there and diggin around..whatever. get stoned and paint a room in your house...shit like that can be fun if you let it.

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So, if a stranger walked up to you and poured pebble like seeds into your hand and then said, plant them and your harvest can be made into rope cloth or paper, it could help the sick or intoxicate. What would you say?

Would you keep the seeds or chuck them away?

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fenderbender

dude thats basically what being high is


either dont get THAT high, or mabey smokin the herb aint for you

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Psilocychosis

You should address these issues that are bothering you before you light up again. Smoking is not usually going to rid you of your issues, they are there, and still very prevalent. Get a hold of your life my friend, from there its will all improve. For now, I would quit. Its not worth the struggle, like HFB said, not worth playing with your sanity.

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PositiveVibez

Well, like i said, i dont smoke as much as i used to.
It was an everyday thing for me. I didnt slow down because it was making me mentally unstable, i did it because everyday i would feel tired and run down. I only smoke about 2-3 times a week now. I guess the problem is that i think way to much. I just need to let go and chill out is all. It isnt like im smoking 2-3 blunts all together, today i only smoked a Joint with my friend. It was some different bud, and i didnt get nervous or paranoid. I guess it could be the bud i was smoking, because my dealer gets the same shit all the time and im pretty much sick of it.

dubtrice

sit at home, smoke a lil jay and play a video game... do this every once in a while and eventually you'll grow back the high tolerance that you had; if thats what you really want.

PositiveVibez

Ima chick, i dont like video games that much.

Kishar

^pics or i call bs.

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So, if a stranger walked up to you and poured pebble like seeds into your hand and then said, plant them and your harvest can be made into rope cloth or paper, it could help the sick or intoxicate. What would you say?

Would you keep the seeds or chuck them away?

RollREDRoll

dubtrice

well then your pretty much screwed... hey that brings up another idea!

idk, you gotta do something that stimulates your mind and requires you to focus, keep your thoughts away from the shakes and paranoia, draw, write or do something fun

fenderbender

or postin nudes on yahooka...

that allways gets me focused and less paranoid

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PositiveVibez

You can forget about the nude pics.

Mydriasis

if only nude pictures had ANYTHING to do with someones well-being. Back to the support.

So PositiveVibez, how's life in general? any better or worse? any new clarity? How is the smoking situation now? Any improvement/deprovement(made up word deal with it)?

I don't like the advice that you aren't smoking enough. Because freaking out to some degree is the benefit of spiritual cannabis use. However for medical use or a linear life then either constantly smoke or don't smoke. But doesn't that almost kill the fun of being stoned?
(IME)
When I used to smoke everyday all day at all costs, after a couple months or so I forgot what was stoned and what was sober. Not to say I couldn't feel the effect of a fat bong rip, but it lost it's magic with me. I like to treasure the weed that comes into my possession. I do understand most people aren't like me.

Have you tried meditation of any sort yet? If not, don't be discouraged by the fact that you don't know the classical practice of meditation. There's no right or wrong way to find peace beyond language . Only you know the key to get your conscious state at a zen, nirvana. Even if you just sit down for a half hour(eyes shut) and think about things from a different perspective that can be very beneficial to your overall well-being which could help get you more comfortable in your own skin.

I'm a big thinker too. In fact I spend most of my time thinking about crazy thing's when or when I'm not stoned. If your thinking fast while cannabis is flipping your thought directions at an even faster pace, then the best analogy I can think of would be: the difference between dropping a marble into a cup of water verses hurling hot coals into a cup of water. It's unmanagable, dangerous feeling, and senseless. You need to get your "I'm high" mind-state to be your (1).unwinding time, or (2)you need to adapt to the exploration your mind is doing. So my reccomendations would be:
1:Unwinding time
-Try smoking towards night time, with someone to talk to or interact with in some way(aka a pleasant distraction).
so if people geek you out, try to avoid too many of them, or at least the wrong ones.
-Pleasant distraction could be meditation, reading a book, watching comedies, drawing, listening to music that isn't to insane(even if it's generally out of your musical appetite).
2:Exploration
- When you hit that point where you say "I'm freaking out" or "shit somethings wrong", you need to learn how to quiet that voice from your stoned mind. Remember you have total control of your mind, even though sometimes when your stoned it feels like a big ball or WTF, haha.
- As I said before weed is an amplifier. Of everything(think about how bright the sun is when your baked, or how AWESOME cookies are, or your favorite jam). Same thing with little irky thoughts your may have in your head such as "Do these people like me?", "Do I sound stupid?". You gotta just let it flow and either ride it out and be-little them by combatting them with thought's like "This is stupid and irrational lolz". Re-realize your REAL surroundings "Shit I'm just on my front porch, why am I bugging out?". Then find your control zone, think of something that always interests you(if you like math freshen up on some mental math w/e boats your float dude). Don't always ask why, just change the topic, or find a resolution. Have you ever practiced lucid dreaming? It's very similar to life, and especially stoned life .

- Quick Question! Before a freak out, while your smoking do you ever catch yourself saying "I'm about to get REALLY high" or anything like that? That used to be a big tip off for me to prepare myself to get ready to battle silly exaggerated thoughts.

Your probably like "why does someone named after pupil dilation give a shit about whether I am comfortable when I'm high or not?" Well I just know the joys cannabis can give to people, and I know the worm-hole it can throw you through to get to them. I believe it's in my duty to share whatever real knowledge I've obtained in my life to anyone who may be able to use it. So hopefully I'm helping, if not, I'm not hurt .

Recently I've seen a 200 pound wrestling coach smoke a bong and had a black-out panic attack(he's a frequent smoker too). Weeds a crazy little thing. But your definately not alone.

& <3 & sorry to write an epic post

Qui-Bong Jinn

Quit for a month, let your body chill out. And if paranoia is the problem, you just gotta learn to not give a fuck, my boss stares me right in the eyes every morning, and I know my eyes are red. And most of all you gotta make weed yo' bitch, take control of your high, make it what you want it to be. And dont worry about your heart rofl its not going to explode or anything.

Psilocychosis

How is this coming along my friend?

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al-Mu'akhkhir

please please please please if you decide to listen to someone in this thread DO NOT LISTEN TO THIS GUY.

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Mydriasis

Your breaking my <3 here, but if that's the consensus. Dip-set, and good-luck!

roldman

I have experienced the same issue and have been workin it for the last 2 years. As A kid, I smoked everyday, all day. Wake and Bake was my norm. Several ounces a week was easy. I smoked everyday for maybe 9-10 years? I quit for 10 years or so? Then tried to go back. Everytime, I had joint or bong hit I'd get racy pulse, feeling like I was having a heart attack although if I looked close I was only "feeling" like that, it wasnt reality. My pulse was fine. After reading all I could it seems to be in the anxiety attack area. I have no life issues. I'm not particularly anxious about things in general, I own my own home so surroundings are not it. I am an older guy just looking to smoke a bowl on occasion. I have tried 10-15 different varieties all with essentially the same results (even the magic Strawberry cough). What I have concluded from reading the different online resources is my body must have developed an "allergic" type reaction. For some mysterious reason this can happen as we age and not with just pot. I can eat cookies and as long as I am careful I seem to tolerate that. One bong hit can set me off. Even though the symptoms are "fake" They are uncomfortable so I have 2 choices, stop or just be real careful. I am going to continue to try different varieties. Sure it's sad, but we cant fight mother nature. Maybe your problem is different. I fought believing that I had developed this allergic thing for a long time. Most comments say, its your surroundings, your mental state, too strong, just think uhmmmmmmmmm and it will all be fine..I only wish it were that simple. Just my 2 cents. Maybe after it is decriminalized someone will be able to do a study on this and get to the roots on whats the real issue is. Until then, cookies are the way to go for me.... Good Luck in your travels.