Official Prayer/Energy/Vibes Thread

[Mydriasis]

I hope no one else has done this, if so mod's feel free to remove!

We all go through times that test our strength, will, motivation, and other demanding properties that keep us in existence. You could be sick, someone you know could be sick, or hurt, or your about to endure some sort of emotional or spiritual challenge, we all need a boost.

Whether you believe in Christianity, a non theistic religion, or your a mutt. I hope we can all agree that it helps to have someone rooting for you even if you don't know them(or only know them from the web). This is a thread were people can ask the other members of yahooka for a prayer, some positive energy, some positive vibes, or whatever may channel into our existence in a time of need.

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I'll kick it off. Well this weekend I am going to endure a psychedelic breakfast. To most people this doesn't mean much but my circumstances are a little different. Part of my belief system(informal religion) requires me to explore the universe, my body, mind, and mother nature. So as you could assume I'm a little psychonaut.

For those of you who don't know, I'm diagnosed with paranoid schitzophrenia. Which can make my rituals a lot more powerful than they are for most with some after-effects. Pretty much I am asking for some vibes before my journey or during or for after-wards. Please don't judge me on this decision, this is what I live for.

I am bound to be just fine as always, but it never hurt to have some support. I will post a very intricate and detailed report that will be one of a kind after-wards(on Sunday).

Thanks for taking your time and reading this, I will return the favor!
Much love,

[Mafoo]

good vibes~

paranoid schitzo, what qualifies one to recieve that title? im curious because i tend to have after fx from psychs. im a psychonaut too

[Mydriasis]

Thanks for the vibes sir!

Well in my instance I am constantly under surveilance. I can now diminish that I'm not, but I constantly believe I am. So I live a pretty torn life, it's hard for me to really get out sometimes even for school and parties(stress triggers attacks). Every car behind me is a federal agent(I've had instances where I saw people/cars that weren't there looking at me realer than ever). Whether they want to kill me, because I know something they don't want me too, or they want to take me to jail forever is my residual mental out-come. This problem comes down to dosing 38 hits of cid after being pulled over in a friends car after smoking a joint...We knew we were getting searched so down the hatch it went.

I used to move weight as well so something snapped in my brain those next couple days of tripping(even after self-administering 25mg of seroquel from a friends perscription but it helped me sleep). HPPD is also a very real side-effect from this as well, which is embarassing at parties to just instantly be dosed on 38 hits... I don't believe I am as poor off as most other schitzophrenics and I feel I am blessed in that way. PS I also refuse to take medication for it, and so far things have gone from suicidal to VERY manageable. If I'm ever struggling with it there will certainly be a G&S post about it...But onto positive vibes!

[Mafoo]

i see. thanks for the explanation. and damn 38 hits! im not surprised you have some lingering paranoia, i cant even imagine that!

more good vibes going your way! enjoy the experience fully

[Peace seeker]

good vibes going your way Mydriasis

I think your paranoia/schizofrenia is very much related to all the drugs you ve done. 38 hits hits of cid at once???! Damn....you got a strong head

and i thought doing two puprle microdots at once was madness.....

You re not paranoid. Its the drugs buddy. When u get off them, in a year or two you ll be fine.


Btw, i need some good vibes for my wife and our newborn please

[José]

dude congrats on the baby! I hope everything's alright man, I will pray for your whole family before I go to sleep tonight.

I really need some good vibes or something to help me with my social stamina. Tonight I pushed myself to go out even though I knew it wouldn't be that much fun and it was fucking terrible. Why do I even bother hanging out with people any more? :/ I really need some new friends, well it wasn't even my friends, it was the people they invited over.

[Mydriasis]

Peace seeker looks like we're doing an energy swap.

SpankyMcLanky - Fuck your friends if they do you more harm than good. I know that may make you lonely for a little while but you don't wanna be the dude who get's older and is really bitter just because of you not growing into a more stable group. Much love to yea dude, I'll send you some good fortune to you through the air-waves as well.

[Peace seeker]

Spanky : Mydriasis said it wisely. Dont even bother with the loosers. Its better being alone than being with people you dont have any repsect for.

I m sending ya some super social vibes, from my party days. I have no use for them atm anyway. Thanks for your wishes. My wife has to go to her OB gyn today because she has been bleeding for a month after giving birth. this happened the first time she gave birth as well and she did have to do an operation (something like an abortion) to remove a little piece of placenta still in her woumb.

When she gave birth last month, her doctor did the same operation to her right after giving birth, because she needed it (once again placenta was still in). So we thought that the bleeding would stop, since she had done it and all.
But one monht later, the bleeding hasnt stopped and she needs to go today to have it checked. We hope she doesnt have to do it again (!). 1) because its painfull 2) because i cant handle a newborn and a 2yo alone at home 3) because are finances have been quite low for the past 3 years.

plus they told us that our little one has somekind of enzyme deficiency (G6PD). but they re not sure yet. I m not complaining. Just want to say it somewhere.

we re trying to do our best to see some light at the end of the tunnel, but its not there yet. Sometimes u need some motivation, u know?

sorry for the long post

all vibes welcome



Mydriasis : I think you re on your way to mental stability. IMHO i dont think theres anything "wrong" with you. Doctors are quick to put a label on a conditon. And they put a label that sounds so scary....(been there) and makes us think we re even worse than we thought...

Sometimes we all think we re going crazy. Seeing things, hearings things or just trying to make it. Find me one who is totally sane....

sometimes i also think they re after me. Maybe cause i grow (for presonal use). Last night i even dreamed about it. Undercover cars in my neighborhood for me. Then i wake up and think to myself, why would undercover cops be on your ass, for 4 plants?

just my paranoia u knwo what i mean?

Most of the time stress works in weird ways and affects the whole body (including mind).

Praying and meditation helps me best, but many times i find myself occupied with other things (work than needs to be done at home) and i dont pray. then i get stressed, tired, unmotivated, despressed, etc.

then i ll pray/meditate and all the problems seem manageable.

Sweating too many "little things", makes us think that there is one big problem ahead of us that cant be solved. We all fall into that trap, because we dont find time for ourselves. Time to feed our soul with positive energy from outer space. Far far away.

[Mafoo]

Originally Posted by Peace seeker

Mydriasis : I think you re on your way to mental stability. IMHO i dont think theres anything "wrong" with you. Doctors are quick to put a label on a conditon. And they put a label that sounds so scary....(been there) and makes us think we re even worse than we thought...

Sometimes we all think we re going crazy. Seeing things, hearings things or just trying to make it. Find me one who is totally sane....

sometimes i also think they re after me. Maybe cause i grow (for presonal use). Last night i even dreamed about it. Undercover cars in my neighborhood for me. Then i wake up and think to myself, why would undercover cops be on your ass, for 4 plants?

just my paranoia u knwo what i mean?

Most of the time stress works in weird ways and affects the whole body (including mind).

Praying and meditation helps me best, but many times i find myself occupied with other things (work than needs to be done at home) and i dont pray. then i get stressed, tired, unmotivated, despressed, etc.

then i ll pray/meditate and all the problems seem manageable.

Sweating too many "little things", makes us think that there is one big problem ahead of us that cant be solved. We all fall into that trap, because we dont find time for ourselves. Time to feed our soul with positive energy from outer space. Far far away.

ive been leisurely studying shamanism for a few years now. ive discovered the power of the shaman comes from him having 'one foot in each world'. In many societies shamen are people who were once 'insane' but have learned to control their mind in such a way that they use themselves as a gateway to healing for other people. The shaman uses the lessons s/he learned while healing their own mind to help and heal other people. thats why i think its b.s. the way our society kinda shuffles away all of the people who have mental 'problems'. We just convince everyone its a sickness that wont get better. but it can really be a tool.

[Peace seeker]

Originally Posted by Mafoo

ive been leisurely studying shamanism for a few years now. ive discovered the power of the shaman comes from him having 'one foot in each world'. In many societies shamen are people who were once 'insane' but have learned to control their mind in such a way that they use themselves as a gateway to healing for other people. The shaman uses the lessons s/he learned while healing their own mind to help and heal other people. thats why i think its b.s. the way our society kinda shuffles away all of the people who have mental 'problems'. We just convince everyone its a sickness that wont get better. but it can really be a tool.

society is quick to judge other people no matter what their "problem" or gift is.

We re quick to judge others because we dont step in their shoes.

I think all those with abilities have some kind of connection with another dimension or side. A touch of God maybe.

[Mydriasis]

Well I had an excellent journey. Thanks so much to all of you, if you wanna read it check it out in OH's. Much love!

[Bearsy]

My oldest brother, Victor was just rushed to Good Samaritan Hospital in LA with possible appendicitis. All of his family is in Western NY and Central GA, and He goes to school in South Central LA(USC) so he's "alone" out there and it probably sucks.
Send some good thoughts his way, please.

[Mydriasis]

Sending vibes Bearsey. I hope it is early apendicitis, because that's very treat-able.

I bet he will end up just fine and dandy!

[Bearsy]

Yeah my bro got an emergency appendectomy and went to the SC Trojans game the next day, lol. Trooper.



And just now, Victor Sr., my dad was just taken in an ambulance to an Emergency neurological hospital... they say he's probably having a neurological episode related to his schizophrenia. He felt like he "was leaving, like I was just going out" and he couldn't remember the month/day and he couldn't remember his cell number or basic facts like that.

Please send out prayers/good vibes/positive energy whatever.

[Jonas]

Best wishes for your family's health bears.

As for me the girl I love is soon to be homeless - parents are giving her till the end of the month to vacate her 'home.' Details are fuzzy but definitely serious. I'll see if I can talk to her mom cuz she seems to be very fond of me (compared to most of my love's former male companions). Anyways - I hope she and her parents can find a middle ground or she can find a nice roomate to move in with, anything stable really.

[Mydriasis]

Glad to hear about your brother's quick recovery!

I will send out some energy for your father bearsy, and your love jonas. Bearsy I can feel for your dad cuz we share the same demon. I've never had anything quite like that, but I've had some episodes that would make most want to give up. I'm going to focus on strength for your dad. Stability for your love Jonas.

Remember posters to post back with updates.

[Mikey]

good vibes to all~~!!

-Mydriasis, damn 38 hits? I've had a similar thing happen to me, we got thrown in the drunk tank once, and I was wearing IPath shoes (the ones with the little secret velcro stash pocket in the tongue of the shoe) and I had 4 hits of E on me, and I was afraid that they'll find it once I was already in the drunk tank and I took them then, I freaked out for a bit then slept for like 9 hours.

[Mydriasis]

Paranoia leading to whim dosing is just bad news lol. Eventually you just ride it out though.

[Mydriasis]

Need more good vibes people!

First DMT trip coming up with-in the next 24 hours. Little nervous but this is what I want, so send em!

[Mafoo]

have a good one mydriasis. youre eager it seems, make sure it feels right, timing wise.

you've definitely got good vibes coming from my pineal gland