reggiedrugs

I’m beginning to hate my friends and I don’t mean annoyed or frustrated at them at times. I mean I sincerely utterly hate my friends. You guys probably don’t know me. I’ve been on Yahooka for a couple of years now and visit the forums on a daily basis. However I’m more of a reader than a poster but for reading your posts for awhile ya’ll seem like cool people so I thought you might be able to shine some insight on my current predicament. Most of them are cool. Some are complete selfish deadbeats but majority of them have always been cool to me. I can’t explain why I hate them exactly but I do. I don’t feel like I can relate to them anymore. Jealousy is probably a contributing factor. I’m nineteen going on twenty right? So I’ve been out of High School for awhile now.

In High School I was not the happiest kid and smoked a lot of dope, drank a lot and popped oxycontin on a pretty daily basis. I also skipped a lot of classes. This wasn’t a huge deal because I still ended up having like 78% average or so which isn’t too bad. It made my parents quite disappointed as well as many of my friends because all I really wanted to do was drink and smoke dope not a social but just alone on my back porch or at the local park or downtown parking garage or where ever really. I guess that can be seen as pretty negative but I could be into worse shit so I never paid much mind.

Anyways once I graduated I decided to look on the positive side. I got accepted into college for journalism, then I could get a car, maybe an apartment, meet new friends, maybe do some traveling in the summer, get some college tail. Was going to be a great year. None of that shit happened. Journalism was definitely not for me so I dropped out. I failed my driver’s test twice. I couldn’t find a steady job to be able to make rent on an apartment. All my classmates were total yuppies and since I wasn’t in residence it was hard meeting people and that goes hand in hand with no tail at all.

So then I’m like “hey! I like working with my hands, I have some experience in construction like fields. Maybe I can get into the trades the Canadian government keeps saying is needing a lot of people.” So I thought I’d be interested in plumbing so I applied to like fifty places. No response. Okay what about tile setter? No response. What about Stone Mason? No response. Then I ask my boss at my part time job if I could work like 40-45 hours a week instead of the 20 I was currently working and the most he could do was 30-35. No other low skill jobs are hiring anywhere else in my city either. So that’s been my year. Sitting on my ass in my parents’ house playing Xbox waiting for any sign of the phone to ring for work. I also do six hours of part time college a week to try and get a certificate for construction health and safety in hopes that might raise my chance to get into a trade.

Seriously. Fuck Canada. I used to like this country but it seems it has jack shit for career opportunities. I don’t really have many goals in my life. All I really want to be honest is an apartment somewhere that I can call home. I’ve been to Toronto, Montreal, Vancouver. Very cool cities. Dig them a lot. My like life goal was to find that apartment in one of those cities. This is when the jealousy part comes in. All of my friends are going to those cities for University. I’m constantly getting these emails how fantastic their lives are there. Seriously bro, they’re all getting fucking free dope from their roommates and getting tons of ladies. Fuck sake even my super overweight friend and albino friend are getting laid, they’re nice guys but wtf seriously? I’m fucking waiting for the phone to ring all day.

I’m still sober but I don’t even get the point anymore. Since I stopped drinking my life has only seemed to have gone down hill. I have rather large sum of cash I’ve worked really hard to save. I was saving it for something good in my life like more schooling or a car or a trip or something but seriously I think I’m just going blow it all now. I’ve started drinking a little again same with smoking. Friend gave me quite a bit of mephedrone. I’ve been going to the casinos and the strip clubs. Been talking to some escort agencies.

So I don’t know what I’m really asking for you guys at all but have you ever been in a similar scenario? or any input at all would be helpful. I just don’t know where I should go from here. It’s not like I haven’t been trying to get out of the house. But everything just seems kind of hopeless at the moment and I have a large chunk of cash I can use to really enjoy myself but then it’ll be all gone if something comes up.

osirus2020

Is your real problem. I know how you feel, I've been in the same position a few times (regarding work) and you really have to be pro active about finding a job. Sitting around getting high is only going to hold you back.

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reggiedrugs

i've tried being as pro active as possible. I've tried signing up for multiple college courses. I am talking a couple now. I've gone to over fifty places to hand out resumes. I go to the Union Hall once to twice a month to see if there's anything there, I have my name and resume up on a Canadian Trade website for any employers to see. I don't see what else I can do but wait, it sux.

shai_hulud

you keep contradicting yourself in that post.

life isn't easy - it's not as simple as a movie montage will have you believe. sure you think "hey, i've done X amount of effort and only have X to show for it. I DESERVE MORE, DAMMIT!" no. life doesn't work that way. you have to try harder. and don't be stupid - if you blow all that cash on hookers and booze, think about how much worse off you will be than you are now. don't dig that hole.

stop feeling sorry for yourself and do what you have to do so that you are in a position where you can send emails to your friends that will make them jealous of your life.

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ChiefBongWater

Well i think it does sound like you are least trying. But like osirus said getting high/drunk isnt going to help anything. Its cool if u wanna do that in monderation, but dont blow all of the money you made on that stuff. If you wanna blow your money on stuff buy yourself some new clothes or on something that will make you feel better about yourself. Then maybe you will meet some new friends. But my advice is to save the money you made. You'll be glad you did later on

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Mikey

where there's a will there's a way
if what your doing isn't working try different methods
have a different resume for each different job you apply to
and apply everywhere and make looking for a job your 9 to 5 gig then get high and drunk after 'work'

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Purd Hupley

If you know how to do plumbing, can do tile setting, and are a stone mason (Who controls the English pound, who keeps the metric system down), hang out your shingle. Be your own boss. Those are all money making trades. I don't know what you need in the way of licensing, but get it. You say your goals are pretty low, which is fine. I respect that. But there's nothing wrong with exceeding the goals you have now. You'll never get ahead working for a boss. That's why I bust my ass at my real job, then come home and spend as much time as I can afford in my shop making stuff to sell. My goal is to work for me. I put my heart and soul into everything I make, because it's up to me to succeed. Sure, there are bumps in the road, and it's easy to just give up. I have a tendency toward depression, but I have to fight it, because I have bigger dreams.

It's up to you, guy. No one can hold you down but you.