wellfleation

Nobody outside of my own circle seems to get my dry sense of dark humor. I can say something I think is funny to in my wife's inner circle and most just don't seem to see the humor (or act as though they didn't hear me) or seem to know that I am even trying to be funny (obviously I am not funny to them). But my true friends share a similar sense of humor and we laugh together when together. Most people are uptight judgmental dicks in my opinion. This is true everywhere, even (especially) here. The difference is here they have no reason to hide it.

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The Rev

I think it's normalcy, myself. There are alot of things people expect from one another that are totally arbitrary, and just seem silly to me. I think it bugs me most when I'm feeling really into something that others can't see the value of, or is beyond the scope of their normal, social boundaries. I've been doing pretty well lately with my work, both on my book, and with economics/stocks, but feeling just the opposite, because there's no one to really share it with. Not around me IRL anyway.



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This is why my marriage, in spite of it's shortcomings, is so great. My wife and I both have the same fucked up sense of humor. For example, "nigger" is a greeting of affection between us. I get called the N-word more times in a day than any three alabama inmates you can find. And it cracks me up every time.



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Ha, me and my wife are like that (though she can be a total bitch alot of the time, she realizes that and is working on it), as to your original post, it reads like something I might have typed myself, but since you enjoy your time here so much, you probably expected alot of folk here to have similar feelings.

I don't even bother to try talking to anyone about it because what's the use? If people can't understand who you are, how can they understand where you're coming from? I always just referred to it as me being able to feel lonely even in a room full of people...detached. I often imagine I'm a huge boulder in the ocean, and "normal" life (social situations and all that jazz) is like the water, flowing around me but not able to budge me, if that makes any sense. But that's me I guess, In most social situations, I prefer to just sit back and watch everything, I'm an observer. Alot of people don't do that, I like to think it gives me an insight they lack.

I guess it makes me appear kind of hermit-like, I don't mind socializing (though I'd rather do it in smaller groups), but I also have no problem with being alone for extended periods of time.

"normal" is highly overrated, imo.

And don't worry, if I win the 50 million dollar lottomax tomorrow night, there will be a Yahooka party!

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shark plays shark piano

I agree with this. I can feel where you are coming from Rev, truthfully, but it's not something that I involve myself with very often anymore. I get more out of life from getting more out of life. When I find myself disinterested in something I begin to worry. The way I see things now is that all of that normalcy is really something to look at. It all seems like a fantastic play. There is so much to discover about the history of every gesture and the history of every person in that person. It may seem like the 20th century, or whatever, robbed humanity of itself, but there is still light there, there is still life there.

All that said I would probably feel differently if I did not have a couple of really close friends and a wonderful girlfriend who I can go out with and really get my yarns out. I rarely feel anything but well stretched upstairs and I can credit them a lot for it.

hijabihippie

I recognize this, I think. Your wife is Latina, yes?