Bearsy

Everyone knows me. Anywhere I go I run into someone who knows me from somewhere or someone. Couch, is what I am to them. A nickname I got in high school that stuck with me.

Everyone knows me, but none of them actually know me. I don't really know how to explain it, and I know this sounds paranoid/egotistical but I feel like this Couch persona has gotten out of hand and now to know who I am or to have partied with me is sort of like a notch on people's belts.

I don't have many real friends, that is to say people who know Darien not just the fat fun party guy. And the ones that I do consider my real friends I almost never get to see. The person I could closest call my best friend I almost never see him, last time was over 2 months ago.

And don't get me wrong being popular is/was nice. Anytime I go to a party I get a beer in one hand and a joint in the other without even asking and that's cool, but I can't escape it. I don't like it anymore. I like the free drugs and booze, but I just want some real goddamn human connection.

I see people who have best friends, and I want that. I've never had a best friend. I grew up with no friends at all like not an exxageration, until high school the only people my age that I ever spoke to were people in school or church and outside of that the only people I chilled with other than my older brothers (who I've never had good relationships with) were on celluloid or in print.

As with most of the threads I post in G&S, I don't really know where I'm going with this, I just don't have anyone to talk to this about and you guys are pretty great listeners.

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Mikey

Take it for what it's worth man, who cares who people think about you ; negative or positive right?

As long as you know who your real friends are your a-ok and nothing wrong being courteous with acquaintances right?

Never know you might need something from someone or keeping opportunities open. (selfish way of looking at it I know, but it's a dog-eat-dog world

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shai_hulud

i think you have to start analyzing your own behavior with others, bearsy. i mean, maybe you let this 'i'm popular, sigh, no one gets me' thing go to your head and it is you that has created a barrier between others? maybe not, though - just something to think about.

also, mikey, you just gave him advice to use people. the fuck, man? is that how you roll?

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Mikey

wow
i so did not mean it that way

i just meant treat people the way you want to be treated
as in fuck i dont like this person but theyre all over me all the time thinking im great and shit and i hate it


but if theres some person i really enjoy their company and they dont think im all that great i'd still appreciate it if they made an effort to spend time with me

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Bearsy

No see that's what I do. Every time I go do something there are these people and I go along with it play the part. I'm just so over it. And the problem is there's so many of them I don't remember most of them. I know it sounds like a bitch thing to complain about but for the past 5 or so years of my life I haven't had any real relationships.

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Grieves

Looks like you are on a search for your "soul mate", start looking for a female...Men just use each other if it is mutually beneficial (conditional love)...Women tend to offer what you are looking for in exchange for love and companionship (unconditional love)...

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fenderbender

na bearsy i hear what your saying man... I felt that way for a about a year only though, then i lucked out and got a couplee great friends and another girlfriend.

Its lonely as fuck without good friends man. real human connection and shit. I was on good terms with my entire town but no one to just really chill with.


I dont really have any advice besides this... Find a person you think would be a good friend and Push to be that persons good friend. If it doesnt work out then w.e try again.

Shit will never fall into ur lap bearsy, even one as big as yours lol.

Make your life the way you want it.


Good advice?

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HTAM

Go hang out with some people that do other things you like do, that don't include partying. Pick something you've always wanted to do, and go make some new friends.

The Rev

Proof Grieves is a virgin.

As for you, Mr. Bears, I think you have some real friends here on YaHooka. In fact, I'd venture to say that your real life hasn't quite caught up with your life here, in terms of how you have grown as a person. I know how that is. I feel little real connection with others, because I, too, don't feel like anyone gets me. I've always believed it's because I've moved past the things that still keep the other people I've known interested (like partying, or drama, or bitching about work, or politics, or what have you). You've probably just grown out of the "Couch" phase.

BTW, "Couch" sounds like a show about a really really good psychiatrist who's also kind of a dick.



The Rev

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Geeno

I think it's part of growing up. I had a realization similar to yours and ended up moving across the country cause I didn't really give a fuck about the relationships I had developed back home.

I have like 1 true friend back there and he's struggling with the same thing right now. No quality friends.

If I'm gonna be alone, I'm gonna do it where the weather is nice. I see myself kinda like a ronin, no allegiances just wandering about doing my thing.

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Sir-Ex

that's bullshit, my homies got my back for life.

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Smile

Ditch the cigs!!!!!!

Sir-Ex

right on nigga, lone ranger style shit.

one day when we're both in our 40s we must have a duel

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Ditch the cigs!!!!!!