SageTree

Jimmy,

Your amount of bravery in facing life again and again makes this cat look look like a pussy!!!



No Pun intended, Dawg!!! !!!! You're amazing Dude!!!

I hope I can catch up with you soon on chat this weekend.

Thanks for sharing your life with us, I can speak for more than myself when I say that we are thankful, blessed and have more love in our life, for knowing you.

You're a good man Jimmy.
Thanks for being my Friend.





<I love you, Brother!!!)

~SageTree

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my_scatterheart

People that are going to kill themselves are almost always going to do it regardless of the nice things you have to say. Going over the shit you could've said repeatedly is pointless. Maybe he wouldn't have killed himself that day, but he probably would've done it days later. Know what I'm saying?
Having said that, and knowing that you can't change the past - why not consider all the kind things you DID say, and remember that those might've been the things that kept him around for the days he did choose to stay with us.
Inevitably, these decisions are only that of one person. It doesn't reflect on you. It's all a matter of choosing your own future, keeping in mind that the lens with which you choose to view your past can influence the way things unfold before you. Choose wisely.

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Be mindful even if your mind is full. -J. De La Vega

Jimmycube

Just a quick update.

U guys have no idea how much all yours words have helped me. They have allowed me to come to terms with what has happened and move forward. I am going to use this tragedy to improve my life as well as the lives of my loved ones.

I also would like to show my thanks to some special people on here who have really went out of their way to help me. I will be in contact with you over the coming days and i plan on giving you guys something in return for all the love and support you have shown me with something more than words if u allow me too.

again many thanx and i will be in touch

*it wont be drugs sadly... lol... but....just something small to say thanx from me*

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Mikey

much love jimmy
were always here for you
and we love you.

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RIP Gov

AnimalLover420

Jimmy, I'm so sorry to hear that you've been having a rough time. I totally understand feeling overwhelmed and stressed over so many difficult situations. I don't really have anything that will make those things better, but I do have a little gem of advice that might help you react to them a little better. It goes back to something my Southern Baptist grandmother always says; "Count your blessings." She is pretty much the typical, super-conservative, religious little old lady you might think of when you picture the kind of people who live in Oklahoma, but every once in a while she surprises me with something very profound that can be applied to pretty much anything.

When you focus on all the things you have to be thankful for rather than the things that are bringing you down, you will find that your blessings are too numerous to count. You are alive. You are loved. You have food, water, and a safe, comfy place to sleep at night. Be there for the people who need you and don't feel guilty if feelings of sorrow overtake your mind occasionally, but when it gets to be too much, count your blessings.



^Doesn't really have a whole lot to do with your post, but I literally just now found it as I was posting this and thought it was uplifting. Feel better, friend!

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turmaline

Stay positive, and try not too much to focus on the terrible things that are going on. I know it is hard, but maybe you could take yourself back to the sunnier side of life, back to that kickass art store and all that crazy art paper, and the good things you enjoy in life.

Your friends made the choices in their lives that put them where they are. It is so very sad it had to work out that way and I know you would have saved them if you could have but you did and do the best you can, and you are a very good and special, dear, person..I'm sure they knew and know this now.

I hope you remember how important you are.

luv yah JC.

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tedkennedy

jimmy, your a good guy. im sorry you are going through tough times, keep on truckin' brother and things will get better again.

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matthew munari

Jimmycube

well the funeral was yesterday. It ended up being tougher than i thought. I mean i knew it was gonna be hard but i was doing pretty good emotionally. I just picture him being part of everything right now. Like he is in the air, the clouds, the grass, the snow, the sun. He is just part everything even part of me and always will be.

It just got really hard when i seen his family (his parents handled things wrong with him i think, he had a coke problem but it wasnt really bad, i am not saying it was good of course but it wasnt like he was selling his shoes to buy some coke or anything like that. They did the "tough love" thing and when he slipped up after rehab they told him they dint want him in their lives anymore and he wasnt welcomed in their home anymore) i was upset at his parents but of course i dint say anything about it because it definitely wasnt the right time or place.

I just seen how many people were there and how many lives were affected by him leaving this life and it was all a bit overwhelming. He had a closed casket so i couldnt really say good bye like i pictured doing but i say good bye and hello in my head and heart. he left this earth but he became part of it at the same time (i dont know if that makes sense to anybody but thats how i feel)

decided to call in sick from work today and i am just spending the day with my wife talking about things and sharing memories of him. We are also trying to do some things to keep our minds busy like playing little big planet 2.

just thought i would give a final update. Its hard but like many people have said for every down or low part in life there is a high waiting around the next corner so we will all be alright.

thanx again for all the support guys. much love

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tedkennedy

^ thats the problem with the way americans view drugs and drug addiction. being irrationally"tough" on drug users and addicts makes everyone lose instead of giving drug addicts support they need.

sorry about your friend jimmy

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matthew munari

my_scatterheart

2 sides to every story

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SageTree

I'm glad you took off work and had a day for yourself Jim, you have a big heart, good on you for taking care of it.

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