abraxas

Few if any of you know me but I'm not ready to share this on facebook or elsewhere. Forgive me for dumping this on strangers.

Tuesday night one of my dogs got loose (I live in a dangerous little place (for dogs), a farmtown just outside of a big city in Taiwan. I spent the time it took to finish a bottle of wine looking/waiting for him, no luck. I was about to give up and go to bed, but I decided to get on the scooter and give one more look. I went down my road (no shoulder, just a bad road) one direction, didn't see him, turned around and went down to the other end, scanning the tilled fields, bamboo forests etc. (this is eleven pm), turned around again to head back, and while scanning the surrounding areas, my eyes not on the road, I drifted into the path of an oncoming car. It happened so fast, next thing I knew I was laid out on the road.

An ambulance came and took me to the hospital where I was xrayed etc. Bruises all over the place no broken bones, I was very lucky, my scooter basically disintigrated. The police were also there, breathalized me and needless to say I was over the limit. So at about 3am when they released me I was taken to the police station and spent the next twelve hours being processed and put before a judge.

I finally got home and collapsed in bed. At six the next morning my sister called to tell me that my ex-girlfriend--and my sister's good friend, they went to vet school together, had died suddenly. So I'm in shock about that, we were still close, and some friends came over and pulled me to their place to get my mind off it. The next morning some co-workers came by to help clean my place up, their way of helping. I'm surrounded by awesome people, no doubt about it.

Unfortunately my co-workers weren't aware that my dogs couldn't run free around my place, so my dangers, it sucks. When I got home at 3, two of my dogs (I have six), had advanced signs of poisoning. I rushed them to the vet but it was too late and they both died. Some friends came by and helped me bury them as I was in no shape to dig a hole, could barely walk.

My grief hops back and forth from Kristi to Foster to Kali, I just can't even process it. As much as I loved my dogs (dearly), and as immediate as that whole episode was, it's Kristi that is eating me up the most. We were cut from the same cloth, Dr Doolittle types, always with more pets than a person should sanely have. Well that's all, I hope it's the worst week I have to bear, ever. Thanks for your ear.

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farmergiles

You poor thing, that's a week from hell.

Kristi was your ex I take it.

Everyone dogs and people look very happy in the photos.

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abraxas

farmergiles, thanks.

myxomatosis

Damn. Pretty raw deal. Keep your head up.

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HTAM

Good that you chose to dump it here if you feel like you can't anywhere else.

I really appreciate where you are right now. Keep it together.

my_scatterheart

So sorry. I can't even imagine..

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abraxas

Thank you. I'm hurting. I appreciate all support.

This is a song that makes me cry my eyes out but it helps.

my_scatterheart

I don't know how you're even functioning right now. I'd have lost my shit. Completely.

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abraxas

Friends and family scatterheart. And in the end what's the difference?

(Don't get me wrong I lose my shit from time to time. Trying to figure out if I should go to work tmrw morning....)