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maszac · 01-30-2012, 08:23 PM

Quicksand, im sure some of you can relate to the word, and i just meant for this to be a thread about how those of us who can relate, relate.

I dunno if i wanna divuldge in mine, cause it feels so petty, small, and completely deserving in the sense i brought upon myselff... But i just wannted a brotherhood feelingg maybe, since i feel so put out and alone all the time. Even with my best of friends, i know feel like an outsider, just sinking... And it definetely feels like my fault.

Another fun word- replaced.
Hell, im dispensable here.

I know im not the only one who feels like the only reason they breath is because theyre afraid of the damage holding their bbreath could be to the ones they love, and of course of what will be after... But i know im not living for myself.

They make it seem like its so easy to do, to just love and live, and be yourself... But it never feels like it. Iunno who i am, and i really dont wanna be one who can live and accept, let alone prosper in the world of today. I havent flicked a but in like a year or more of smoking cigs... Cause i dont wanna be the person responsible for that disgusted feeling when i see all those butts... But thats such a small thing...

Sir-Ex · 01-30-2012, 08:32 PM

Man I wish I could give you good advice but I think I've known exactly what you mean. The only way out is through.

Cerpin Taxt · 01-30-2012, 11:00 PM

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Edit: This is not meant to undermine your situation. Rev's advice is sound.

The Rev · 01-30-2012, 11:20 PM

You sound depressed, bro. Thought of talking to someone? It could help. Did in my case.

As for feeling like you don't matter, I know it well. It is the great obstacle of my life. It's fucked me many times, but it's also taught me that faith in myself pays off, because now I know that no matter how painful the thought in my mind, and no matter how hard it can be to shake, it's never going to be bigger than the strength I can summon to overcome it.

The Rev

01-30-2012, 08:23 PM	#1 (permalink)
maszac toast Join Date: Jul 2007 Location: kc Posts: 915 Thanks: 1,458 Thanked 266 Times in 162 Posts	quicksand Quicksand, im sure some of you can relate to the word, and i just meant for this to be a thread about how those of us who can relate, relate. I dunno if i wanna divuldge in mine, cause it feels so petty, small, and completely deserving in the sense i brought upon myselff... But i just wannted a brotherhood feelingg maybe, since i feel so put out and alone all the time. Even with my best of friends, i know feel like an outsider, just sinking... And it definetely feels like my fault. Another fun word- replaced. Hell, im dispensable here. I know im not the only one who feels like the only reason they breath is because theyre afraid of the damage holding their bbreath could be to the ones they love, and of course of what will be after... But i know im not living for myself. They make it seem like its so easy to do, to just love and live, and be yourself... But it never feels like it. Iunno who i am, and i really dont wanna be one who can live and accept, let alone prosper in the world of today. I havent flicked a but in like a year or more of smoking cigs... Cause i dont wanna be the person responsible for that disgusted feeling when i see all those butts... But thats such a small thing... Last edited by maszac; 01-30-2012 at 08:30 PM.

01-30-2012, 08:32 PM	#2 (permalink)
Sir-Ex Learner Join Date: Jul 2001 Location: Edmonton, Alberta Posts: 11,416 Thanks: 1,726 Thanked 3,820 Times in 2,258 Posts	Man I wish I could give you good advice but I think I've known exactly what you mean. The only way out is through. __________________ Smile Ditch the cigs!!!!!!

01-30-2012, 11:20 PM	#4 (permalink)
The Rev Clear Light Join Date: Oct 2002 Location: In my head, somewhere. Posts: 17,865 Thanks: 5,018 Thanked 5,420 Times in 2,865 Posts	You sound depressed, bro. Thought of talking to someone? It could help. Did in my case. As for feeling like you don't matter, I know it well. It is the great obstacle of my life. It's fucked me many times, but it's also taught me that faith in myself pays off, because now I know that no matter how painful the thought in my mind, and no matter how hard it can be to shake, it's never going to be bigger than the strength I can summon to overcome it. The Rev __________________ Budforce - My Friend August 29, 1973- May 25, 2012

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