fenderbender

so


over the weekend my girlfriend passed a kidney stone.


that much pain + a depressed/suicidal person....= bad combo




idk i really wanted to make this thread but now as im typing it the timing is all off and i dont have as much to say...




Long story short: My girlfriend OD'd on pain meds twice that day. Not a BIG overdose, but enough where her breathing would keep stopping.

After getting through hours of having to watch her and slap her in the face to wake her up over and over i eventually passed out at like 6am after she sobered up enough to not be dieing, then got to wake up two hours later and repeat the process (although worse/longer cause this time it was extended release oxy's) because she woke up in severe pain and ate more drugs.







having a girl begging you to just let her die, pleading with you.. while you actually do have to forcefully wake her up b/c she stops breathing/actually IS dieing...

If you are wondering why i didnt call 911... i didnt b/c
1)she would have gotten committed to the mental hospital without a doubt b/c of her past record
2) she would tell me how she'd never forgive me/rather die/etc etc b/c she couldnt handle getting committed like that again.

knowing this i still had 911 ready to call, TRYING to determine when the right time would be to realize i couldnt keep her alive anymore (even tho by then it would have been too late no doubt, idk i was scared)



yeah idk how this all sounds, i kinda half assidly typed this out being that it is a few days after it happened and ive began to get over it, but Holy Fuck...

without a doubt the most scared ive ever been, as well as the most traumatizing day or two of my life (other fucked up shit happened too but dont feel like typing it all out)..



loved ones almost dieing = fucked

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Roach

This would have been the best course of action.
Anything else could/can have serious legal repercussions, to you.
You're not protecting her by enabling her.

and pick up some ammonia inhalants at the drug store.

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my_scatterheart

letting loved ones repeatedly almost die = just as fucked. nut up.

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Cerpin Taxt

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fenderbender

lol scatter you are such a bitch


i even said how i was scared and didnt know what to do. also may i add, i was high myself.
not my finest hour but i was scared shitless and didnt know what to do.


but yeah, you are a fucking bitch in like every single one of my threads.
It is common knowledge im a noob yo, it's great how you are cool enough to put it so bitchily all the time



obvious statement is fucking obvious so shut your whore mouth next time

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my_scatterheart

When she dies, you'll blame yourself. You'll feel awful. You wont be able to wrap your head around it, you might even consider killing yourself. For months, maybe years, you'll go over it in your head again and again. Wishing you had done something instead of just mulling it over on a message board.
Do what the future you will wish for years you had done now.

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Roach

translated means....

Taking a more positive action now, can/will save you from future grief.

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farmergiles

She needs to find a doctor that she can trust.

Such doctors do exist.

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The Rev

This doesn't seem like a very healthy relationship, fender. I agree you need to get her the help she needs, but you should help yourself too. You're a good guy. Find a girl who will make you happy, not scare the shit out of you.



The Rev

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adventure

wow yeah Rev pretty much said what I was going to. You need to look out for yourself. If she loves you she wouldn't keep putting you in these situations. We all love you even Scatter, its just hard to see people you care about not care about themselves. You are a young guy this is a lot of shit for you too handle. But know we are all here for you when you need it.

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Terry

Honestly the mental hospital sounds like the best option.

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adventure

Yeah she needs some help, and by some I mean a lot.

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turmaline

Loved ones,almost dying..in all honesty this thread pisses me off..are you seriouse? you had to keep slapping her to See if shewas still breathing? this statement alone tells me alone you are not thinking..and your story says she need s help or she will die. escapism through drugs clearly is making her situation worse. you are clearly not helping..and what kind of burden would have you carried had she died infront of you..christ..youd be the next one dying infront of a loved one begging for them to let it happen.
She clearly needshelp and the fact that you didnt step up to the plate to help her suggests to me you need just as much as help as her.:/

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turmaline

The fact that you didnt take the repsonsibility in the situation to see the "giagantic red flashing flags" tells me you need some sort of guidance...jesus pull your head out of your ass.

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Lloydy

Word, she definitely needs a trip to the loony bin.

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Roach

remember, this is G&S folks.

fender,
I do believe your friend/mate needs some long term 24/7 professional support in dealing with her problem(s).
I think it would be the best thing for both of you, that she get some help.

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Qui-Bong Jinn

Rev put into words what I couldn't, Fender this relationship is beginning to be unhealthy you, you need to move on bro, get her help if you need to, but then get out of there. You will thank yourself later.

You're thinking with the wrong head

turmaline

i know this is guidance and support..but i myself have been in fucked up situations myself..and sugar coating things..well i wish someone had slapped me silly..i was begging for help multiple times..for years..people around me just Passed it off even when i was clearly retarded and all i wanted was a swift kick in the ass..brutal honesty..the situation sounds horrible...its upsetting to me. kinda want to slap fb like "snap out of it" fender you're smarter than that that's all...i pray...im not going to give you attention..im going to telll you you need serious help.

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Geeno

ITT we blame others for giving us the advice we came here for

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mothernature

You have friends here bendy, and we're all telling you the same thing. This is some sick shit.

She needs help and you do too. Please get it.

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