BibleGuy

Hi Yaxie,

I have never experienced myself to be another person/character, but I have certainly experienced things beyond physical reality.

There are some mentions of castle experiences in this thread. The following is the bridge from "Listen To The Music" by Tom Johnston - a Doobie Brother.

"Like a lazy flowing river
Surrounding castles in the sky
And the crowd is growing bigger
List’nin’ for the happy sounds
And I got to let them fly...

...listen to the music... all the time."

I suspect that these lyrics describe what he saw while meditating. Being a "Doobie" Brother you can easily guess what prompted his visions.

I haven't seen the castle myself, but I have heard celestial music and seen other wonderful things.

You mentioned "i became sure that i am on my way to becoming a shaman or sorts...". Very interesting. Moses' cannabis-infused Holy Anointing Oil is described in Exodus 30:23. The Hebrew word for oil is shemen and is from the root word shaman, meaning to shine. I believe this is in reference to knowledge of God / the kingdom of heaven. A shaman is a "knowing one" bringing the light of knowledge into the world. Thus, a shaman "shines" which is the meaning and effect of the Anointing Oil who's active essense is cannabis.

When Moses came down from having met with Yahweh on Mount Sinai his face "shone" which figuratively means to shoot out rays of light. Talk about enlightenment!

That's my opinion. I hope you find it helpful.

Namaste! Shine on...

al-Mu'akhkhir

but yeah this sounds like mental illness to me. mild perhaps.

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Mydriasis

This thread puts me at peace, thanks for making it. Maybe I really am not so schitzophrenic.

That quote was fucking beautiful.

#1. Can I relate? Haha! I feel like I have been and am you.

This past two years I have become a monk, a philosopher, a poet, a musician, a lost soul, a lot of things... All of these entities that are with-in me/around me all have this feeling off UGHGUHGUGH like it feels like I am a portal for traveling spirits that have lessens to teach that have been dead for centuries. Sometimes when they enter or leave it completely drains me, it's scary being alone sometimes. I can quiet them down to silence, but they are always around.

#2 what have I become while tripping haha... Ohhh booy. I have been raw energy, I have been dead, I have been a new-born, I have watched the world pan out to be nothing but a blue staticy dot and when I let go of my ego, the universe was lit up with stars and I pissed my pants and snapped out of it. I've also turned into a window-frame, a front-door in a place I have never been(damn you salvia), I have been colors, but worst of all I have been absolutely nothing(one of my earliest trips).

Not nothing as in I am ignoring myself, I mean I literally became nothing, I was gone, I wasn't even an observer, then thankfully the CEVS came back on and I could give myself life again.

One of the weirdest things I've been though was this weird tone. I heard it in the top of my head while I was meditating after eating a large amount of cannabis brownies. And I just let it expand and over-whelm me. All that was left was this semi-high-pitched non-dithering sound.

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Mydriasis

Oh and I think I know what that "white light" is. I've seen it too. Its infinity, it's the only "real" energy imo. It's the energy that when seperated makes all energies including the ones that make up us as creatures, to the love and hatred we send out, to the sun's composition . So in a way we all are created from the seprations of the image of what some call "god"(kinda like what the bible says ).

I refer to this white light/infinity as My Mother, and I refer to the darkness/void as My Grandmother. My theory on creation would freighten most people...Even though I can prove it to be true and valid with the simplist mathematics and basic properties of anything. I was writing a book on it, and I showed it to my mom(a theoretical math major), she told me to just keep it to myself, so I have.

Also bible guy I had NO idea about that stuff in the bible, that really is thought provoking and interesting. Thanks for being a nice member to our community .

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BibleGuy

I'm glad to be here, Mydriasis. Thank you for sharing too.

Mydriasis

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vickyyy?

One night I was so high, Jesus punched me.

Yaxie04

Myrdiasis and BibleGuy, you two are awesome; You have revived my interest in this forum. I know that I'm not crazy, at least in a negative sense, and a debate on that topic is not what my interests were directed towards when posting. Rather, a discussion of enlightenment and the journey through it, is what interests me. I guess I'm just making sure that I'm on the right path... since sometimes it seems to be so so desolate.

Myrdiasis:
1. Publish your math bible creation story - your mom may not feel comfortable with it, but the world needs to know the truth and people's minds always need expanding. Plus I'm curious to read it

2. Your post put me at ease! It was pleasant to read and imagine the possibilities... this may sound funny, but I can feel the energy of truth in your recounting.
I think that the reason why you have had so many awesome trips is that you became nothing in one of your first ones: you have been able to let go of your ego - something which I really need to practice doing.
As for being a portal: On new years I felt like I was being raped by some sort of male spirit, I needed to let go of my discomfort with it, may be called my ego, in order for it to stop. Later, i realised that this was my personification of the western world and specifically New York, where I had just spend a semester. So I understand the difficulties that may come with having spirits pass through you... thought I have had a bit less experience with it. In trying to figure out how to deal with this, to avoid 'rape', and to deal with fear in general, I came to the conclusion that I should just expand and let the energy flow through and out of me. This lines up with my general goal: of being everything... the ultimate female energy I suppose. (Female being all potential, and Male being the activation of that potential) Before that experience I had mostly seen myself in different dimensions or personalities with in myself.

I respect your ability to experience these energies, props to you

A future goal of mine is to gather a group of people with similar abilities and see where we can go together... practice doing what our mass energy is capable of, and does anyway, consciously... after figuring it our a bit

BibleGuy, after reading that bit about Moses, I'm thinking of making some CannaOil to anoint myself with. ;-) I've just discovered how easy it is to make brownies. Will THC absorb through the skin?

<3
.Yan

Mydriasis

Well if there's ever a convention of batty people let me know! haha

I haven't shattered my ego it always seems to pop up at weird times. But I did learn damn fast not to have it around especially when I invite these things into my body!

Reading into your trips is one of the most crucial things I think a hallucinogen user can do. I'm glad you turned the dark experience around into something of value to your life. I too have a problem with irrational fear. I think it is the curse for the mind.

Lately I've been doing really good to get around it though. My fears are that everyone is a cop, and I don't know why I really care so much I guess I just fear false authority influencing my life. I've been breaking the thought loops of it though and have been living a lot more at ease haha.

As for THC being transdermal(absorbab le through skin) I don't think it is. However the other cannabinoids or perhaps even THC has other healing powers(aside from spiritual & mental use) are very likely. I watched a documentary where people were using direct applications of some kind of cannabis extract to heal blemishes and skin cancer. I don't think you can get high from it that way though, unless you took a bath in it maybe haha.

Oh and don't let this forum get you down, there is some obvious jibberish and closed-mindedness, though it's just like a city in real life. There's all walks of life that visit here for different purposes .

and be sure to invite the good spirits/energies to influence your life!

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Yaxie04

My boyfriend has the same cop fear problem. I wonder if it has to do with rebirth and the hippie movement? Or on an even broader metaphysical level, censorship looming over freedom