stonerkid

so for about 4 years I've been chasing various highs, it began with acid when i was around 13 and and from then on most of my time and energy has been spent going to parties/raves and experiencing various substances. i tried all the available research chems 2ci,2ce,2ct2,5meo,4a ceatoxy,MDMC,4-MMC,Mipt,butlyone(li kely forgot one) and plenty of the classics acid,mushrooms,lsa,M DMA,nitrous,coke. and after 4years of partying on such a small island you end up knowing EVERYONE and EVERYONE knows what it is that you do so i ended up as a fried out drug using lill kid. i get my parents friends trying to buy e and having them telling me im way outta there league.
or ill be talking to ice heads and ill mention all the rare/exotic chems i do and they say that's nuts!

so when the iceheads tell me what i do is crazy i need to stop

but now i dont know what to do with my life
how am i gonna meet girls?
how am i gonna forge personal relationships?
how do i have fun after experiencing such a optimal existence?
how do i go to raves sober?
i hate anti drug people, do i hate my self now?
i have HPPD
and i need to know what sober feels like again, its gonna be hard.
i need your help. Im lost

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Mercury

Spend your money on other things. Become a shopaholic. Go to the mall and buy jeans and CD's and candy and shoes and toys. That should fill the void.

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stonerkid

that is one of the worst ideas ever merc

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Mercury

what do you think sober people do? they go to walmart, seriously. what did you do before drugs? you bought stuff. that's what i used to do. i was addicted to clothes and electronics.

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stonerkid

im not trying to fill a void im trying to figure out how to have fun, the least fun way i know

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stonerkid

i dont need to buy stuf thats just stupid
i just want my sobriety back, how my brain used to feel, how i used to look at things/people
but i dont think thats possible

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stonerkid

i was thinkin bout writing a book
at least im not doing this by my self, my best friend is getting sober with me cause we both knew we couldn't pull it off alone

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hijabihippie

Do it!!!!

my_scatterheart

get a life

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stonerkid

thats the whole gotdamn point scatter
my life is partying(was now)
whats yours?

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Lloydy

just accept your fate and become a junkie that hires out pedalos on the beach]
and dont go to raves sober, its shit

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my_scatterheart

School so I can get my nursing license, frisbee, art, music. Whatever I want it to be on any given day.
"get a life" wasn't a "omg ur sucha tool" it was a "go out and do things."

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Mercury

c'mon sober people don't "write books and play frisbee" to be happy. they just go to mcdonalds. they go to the movies.

don't kid yourself into thinking sober people are content simply by being sober. they still have to have their sugar and fats and entertainment and trendy swag. they feel the need to change reality just like drug users do. they get bored so they look for a quick fix. that's happiness like it's always been happiness.

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my_scatterheart

what

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stonerkid

well thats all true and all but depressing as fuck
i dont want that i would rather be doing drugs all the time then be some unhappy fat person

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my_scatterheart

lol talkin about yourself merc?

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stonerkid

we know he is

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Mercury

maybe it is just me then. but i love to go shopping and i love junk food and i love entertainment. that's my life outside of drugs.

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José

I agree, you just gotta find something that moves you.

Like me, I'm completely obsessed with snowboarding and flying RC air crafts. I will probably ask to be buried in my grave with these materials, I love this shit!!!

Just find something that you like that's motivating(and healthy), and dedicate your life to it.

stonerkid

i think the drugs made me desensitized/detached
after they became such a large part of my life
from waking up in the morning to going to sleep majority of my thoughts are on tripping.
its more intense to not do drugs then to do them now

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