I'm so bad at sober... - Page 2

my_scatterheart · 03-16-2011, 12:54 PM

I used to feel that, and it's totally possible to get back to that place in music. You just have to clean yourself up, get your act a little closer to together, and decide what you're doing here.

BuddyBookCooker · 03-16-2011, 01:15 PM

I myself was a full blown junkie for a long time. After everything I'd learned in rehab and all the crappy consequences of doing drugs, the one thing that got me sober was something my attorney said to me. He said, "BuddyBookCooker nothing negative will ever come to you from NOT doing drugs." That means I miss out on all of the good parts of doing drugs, but I won't ever end up in the mess I was in again.

I went 5 years without a puff of smoke or a drop of booze, I like a beer every once in a while now, and i like a pipe full each night, but I don't like white powdery substances anymore. Unfortunately as a result of becoming a drug sissy, I am terrified by the thought of hallucinating as well. I try to think of dropping a hit or eating a few shrooms and it scares the shit out of me.

Good Luck with your struggle.

fenderbender · 04-07-2011, 06:53 PM

hows it goin smokeajoint?

AnimalLover420 · 04-07-2011, 07:44 PM

Once you've been clean for 5 whole years, pack your shit and move to Belize to reward yourself. Gorgeous, tropical weather will be your drug from then on. Keep your eyes on the prize, man. You're on the right path.

SmokeaJoint · 04-07-2011, 08:10 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by fenderbender

hows it goin smokeajoint?

It's going man, ups and downs. At the moment I'm too broke to afford to do anything so that helps.

AnimalLover420, you might have something there.

celestialpillow · 04-07-2011, 08:14 PM

why is the alchemy spider ~

9@39w877@7323 ?

es una musique menos spirit sans cosm souel~shadow?

weak shiite!!!

how n why n whate we escape?

psilocybe me'cyanseanus ~wisen sourcery?

Xil · 04-07-2011, 09:04 PM

can't give any better advice than whats already been posted.

all i can say is that constantly focusing on your addiction is just constantly thinking about using, just through a different lense.

and that your a cool dude, and i wish you the best.

BlazinIrish · 06-07-2011, 01:05 PM

I was into crack for a while, and that was a nightmare. I'm over a year clean right now, and i still crave it! Now I still use chems, like acid, k, and mdma, but not very often.

I just remind myself of how broke and miserable I was being an active crackhead. It's just not worth the 100-200$ blown in a few hours or a night, and the hours and misery and self-loathing that follow.

If you want it bad enough, you can be sober. Just up your weed intake, and maybe take a gravol or two if you find yourself freaking/fiending out too bad.

Grieves · 06-07-2011, 02:18 PM

I think that you put on a big front that you love yourself, but you don't really even like yourself...Until that changes and you make some very at the root fundamental changes and start loving yourself to the extent that it allows you to love those around you unconditionally, you will still have the drive to destroy...

You can deny deny deny, and call me an idiot and say i don't know shit, but i have read enough that you have posted around here to allow me to make those simple realizations...You need to start loving yourself more bro, and not in that, I'm a fucking boss and everyone just doesn't know it way, and more in the I am content with who I am so I can be content and make the sacrifices I need to for the people in my life....

You talk of the magic being gone, magic is contentness in the small things, finding the brilliant in the mundane, being able to make the best of a bad situation, feeling good about life even as it throws the worst at you while at the same time building something that will allow you and those you care about the personal growth that they/you need...

I hope the best for you guy...

fenderbender · 06-07-2011, 02:47 PM

well put grieves

SmokeaJoint · 06-08-2011, 11:58 PM

I can see how thats true. Irks me to say it, but I think you're right. I dunno though, how does one go about trying to amend that part of the self? I do hate having to live in my own skin but I also don't want to be anyone but myself. But yeah. Its late, I'll come back to this in the morning when I can actually think of a constructive response.

03-16-2011, 12:54 PM	#21 (permalink)
my_scatterheart Today, I am alive. Join Date: Jul 2007 Location: NJ Posts: 3,553 Thanks: 1,487 Thanked 3,328 Times in 1,870 Posts	I used to feel that, and it's totally possible to get back to that place in music. You just have to clean yourself up, get your act a little closer to together, and decide what you're doing here. __________________ Be mindful even if your mind is full. -J. De La Vega

04-07-2011, 07:44 PM	#24 (permalink)
AnimalLover420 Love Junkie Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: US Posts: 2,442 Thanks: 716 Thanked 1,067 Times in 448 Posts	Once you've been clean for 5 whole years, pack your shit and move to Belize to reward yourself. Gorgeous, tropical weather will be your drug from then on. Keep your eyes on the prize, man. You're on the right path. __________________ ****************************************

04-07-2011, 08:14 PM	#26 (permalink)
celestialpillow YaHookan Join Date: Jun 2009 Posts: 126 Thanks: 3 Thanked 21 Times in 17 Posts	alchemy spider why is the alchemy spider ~ 9@39w877@7323 ? es una musique menos spirit sans cosm souel~shadow? weak shiite!!! how n why n whate we escape? psilocybe me'cyanseanus ~wisen sourcery?

04-07-2011, 09:04 PM	#27 (permalink)
Xil OD'ing on sobriety Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: Mizzura Posts: 3,334 Blog Entries: 1 Thanks: 1,037 Thanked 1,158 Times in 717 Posts	can't give any better advice than whats already been posted. all i can say is that constantly focusing on your addiction is just constantly thinking about using, just through a different lense. and that your a cool dude, and i wish you the best. __________________ "we'll show these fascists what a couple of hillbillies can do"

06-07-2011, 02:18 PM	#29 (permalink)
Grieves The Worst Join Date: Mar 2003 Location: Interstate 8 Posts: 12,108 Blog Entries: 1 Thanks: 2,580 Thanked 3,129 Times in 1,722 Posts	I think that you put on a big front that you love yourself, but you don't really even like yourself...Until that changes and you make some very at the root fundamental changes and start loving yourself to the extent that it allows you to love those around you unconditionally, you will still have the drive to destroy... You can deny deny deny, and call me an idiot and say i don't know shit, but i have read enough that you have posted around here to allow me to make those simple realizations...You need to start loving yourself more bro, and not in that, I'm a fucking boss and everyone just doesn't know it way, and more in the I am content with who I am so I can be content and make the sacrifices I need to for the people in my life.... You talk of the magic being gone, magic is contentness in the small things, finding the brilliant in the mundane, being able to make the best of a bad situation, feeling good about life even as it throws the worst at you while at the same time building something that will allow you and those you care about the personal growth that they/you need... I hope the best for you guy... __________________ "And no matter what they said dollar is not your friend and it's the feelings that are hard to know are the feelings that all come slow No matter what they said dollar is not your friend and these feelings that so hard to know are the feelings that wont let go No don't let go, till you find a home World Unite and I'll love you forever"

03-16-2011, 01:15 PM	#22 (permalink)
BuddyBookCooker YaHookan Join Date: Mar 2011 Location: MN Posts: 1 Thanks: 0 Thanked 0 Times in 0 Posts	I myself was a full blown junkie for a long time. After everything I'd learned in rehab and all the crappy consequences of doing drugs, the one thing that got me sober was something my attorney said to me. He said, "BuddyBookCooker nothing negative will ever come to you from NOT doing drugs." That means I miss out on all of the good parts of doing drugs, but I won't ever end up in the mess I was in again. I went 5 years without a puff of smoke or a drop of booze, I like a beer every once in a while now, and i like a pipe full each night, but I don't like white powdery substances anymore. Unfortunately as a result of becoming a drug sissy, I am terrified by the thought of hallucinating as well. I try to think of dropping a hit or eating a few shrooms and it scares the shit out of me. Good Luck with your struggle.

06-07-2011, 01:05 PM	#28 (permalink)
BlazinIrish YaHookan Join Date: Jun 2011 Posts: 18 Thanks: 1 Thanked 9 Times in 6 Posts	I was into crack for a while, and that was a nightmare. I'm over a year clean right now, and i still crave it! Now I still use chems, like acid, k, and mdma, but not very often. I just remind myself of how broke and miserable I was being an active crackhead. It's just not worth the 100-200$ blown in a few hours or a night, and the hours and misery and self-loathing that follow. If you want it bad enough, you can be sober. Just up your weed intake, and maybe take a gravol or two if you find yourself freaking/fiending out too bad.

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