~Futile~ - Page 2

**Pharm Girl** · 08-12-2007, 06:19 PM

Truthful statements
Carry a lot of weight
Sometimes a lot of pain
Understood only
When you read the words
And, please understand the environment that I came from~

I'm not property nor an ornament, an appendage to any part of anybody’s body.
I'm a human being, not a figment of someone’s imagination and all woman, yep, a real woman~
Forgiving myself for my limitations
As I would and will forgive those
Who would and will seek to limit my imagination or under estimate this little bird~
Always with a blended smoke at the end of my fingertips~

Have you ever climbed and stood on a mountaintop and felt your insignificance compared to the Creators plan?
Now, when I look back at where I’ve been....~
I tend to see the bad memories last too long~
I no longer care of who did what to who
or who was right or who was wrong~

Beauty and peace are out of place
in a world that is filled to capacity with stress~
For in the rare silence is gestation
of the Creators illuminations~

**Pharm Girl** · 08-13-2007, 05:17 PM

Just look within your heart and find what makes you, you; I am sure if you should find that part that part will always do, so if you want to help me out, just be what makes you, you; then look around this world of yours and do, what you can do!
Everyone has a talent or two, locked somewhere deep inside, the ultimate goal we each should have, is to find it and use in our life…
To share this talent with others, who would share their talent with you, so each can build a lifetime dream, which what we all should do…
A dream that spans from heart to heart, uninhibited from the start, which frees us from our broken past, with a dream connected to our task, which is what we’re actually here to do.
When you dare to be that special part that actually makes you, you!

**Pharm Girl** · 08-13-2007, 05:52 PM

Five Little Senses

Five little senses are all I need.
To use when things are near or far.
I use my eyes to look and see colour all around.
I use my ears to hear sounds whether they be loud or soft.
I use my nose to smell your sweet scent.
I use my hands to touch both smooth and rough.
I use my mouth to taste succulent savours.

Five little senses standing between us.

To see, hear, smell, touch and taste.

The things I need~

**Pharm Girl** · 08-13-2007, 05:56 PM

Show me your mysteries and I'll show you mine
We’ll embark outside this space and time.
Clasp my hand we'll join the dance divine,
We’ll flow gently towards eternal rhyme.
Tell me your fantasies and I'll tell you mine
Show me your ecstasies that flow like wine.
Together we'll reach the highest peak,
Drink deeply from the spring of time.
Far beyond heaven and hell.
Bare your heart to me and I'll give you mine
Though we might be flying blind.
Embrace the fire and ice~

**Pharm Girl** · 08-13-2007, 06:02 PM

I mean, for so long I've had to hide what is surging inside and I'm tired..........~
Tired of having to portray the fake me so you can see who you think I should be.
With this guise I have to mask my desires and the naughty thoughts that I sire in secret.

Can I share them with you? Should I?

I promise it's not as bad as you may think!
I told of my feelings of being betrayed by those I trusted and having to hide it.
Through the pen is where it will begin to be extinguished.

~I'm not through~

I want to explore just one stanza more of my life and be prepare for what is to come.
All is summed up in the chapters that I've wrote.

As I stand fully here, now we will truly see~

**Pharm Girl** · 08-13-2007, 07:05 PM

When things go wrong, as they did.
When the road I trudged seemed all up hill,
When the funds were low, and the debts were high,
And I forgot how to smile, only how to sigh.
I got down a bit,
Rest was a must, but I didn't quit!

Life is odd with it's twists and turns,
As everyone of us sometimes has to learn.
And many a failure turns about.
What he may have won had he stuck it out:

Don't give up, don’t quit!

Success is failure turned inside out,
The blackened hue of the clouds of doubt,
And I could never can tell how close I was,
It may of been near when it seemed so far;
I stuck to the fight when hardest hit!
It's then when things seemed worse,
I never quit……~

And don’t you either!

**Pharm Girl** · 08-13-2007, 08:12 PM

Get out of the way, I need to see my buddy
I haven't seen him in a while
He was gone, he wasn't there.
The last time I saw him
He was in bad shape
His heart was all messed up
His head was in a state, he was not a pretty site.

He had coke in his eyes
And heroine in his blood
His whole body was leaning forward
He just wanted to puke
No, he wanted to die!
I left him alone in his catastrophe
What do you do when all you want to do is run?
I'm sorry, so sorry!
I didn't want to leave you when you needed me the most.
I was weak, not tough at all!
I could hear his screams.
I had, had enough.
I could hear my friend screaming.
Was it an overdose again?
Yes.......

R.I.P. dear Buddy, I will always remember you by your favorite song~

Tassez-vous d'là

Tassez-vous de d'là y faut que j'voye mon chum
Ça fait longtemps que j'l'ai pas vu
Y'était parti y'était pas là
La dernière fois que j'y ai parlé
Son cœur était mal amanché
Sa tête était dans un étau y'était pas beau

Y avait d'la coke dans 'es yeux
Y avait d'l'héro dans l'sang
Y avait tout son corps qu penchait par en avant
Y avait envie d'vomir
Y avait envie d'mourir
Qu'est-ce qu'on fait dans ce temps là
Moi j'avais l'goût d'm'enfuir

Je l'ai laissé tout seul au bord de la catastrophe
Pardonne-moé, pardonne-moé
J'ai pas voulu, j'ai pas voulu
Pas voulu t'abandonner dans le moment le plus rough
Je suis le lache des laches pas le tough des tough

Moé j'fais mon chemin dans la foule
En espérant qu'une chose c'est voir ton visage
Et de t'entendre crier:
J'en ai plein mon casse mais c'pas encore l'overdose
Aidez-moé, aidez-moé

Avec ta voix immense et ton cœur qui explose
Aidez-moé, aidez-moé

Moé j'fais mon chemin dans la foule
En espérant qu'une chose c'est voir ton visage
Et de t'entendre crier:
J'en ai plein mon casse mais c'pas encore l'overdose
Aidez-moé, aidez-moé

**Pharm Girl** · 08-13-2007, 08:34 PM

Oh Great Spirit
Of the Indian People
Hear my words
For they are words that come
From the heart, soul and mind.

Oh Great Spirit
Be my mind,
Be my eyes,
Be my ears,
Be my heart,
Be my soul,

So that I may walk
With dignity and pride.

Oh Great Spirit

I am a child of Thee~
You know of me.

For I am of your people.
I am Native,
An Indian of the Circle of Life

A prisoner of my own demise~
In my own Land!

Oh Great Spirit,
Of the Indian people,
Hear my words
For they are for you.
They are of you.
You are my way of life........`

In the Circle of Life.

**Pharm Girl** · 08-14-2007, 05:37 PM

They'd better take what they can get……

I’ve lured them with juicy bait.

The hook, the line and the sinker.

Together, I've got them in the net….

Not one of them a thinker.

**Pharm Girl** · 08-14-2007, 05:41 PM

Somewhere the sun is shinning
Somewhere the sky is ultra blue
Somewhere the flowers are in bloom…..

Everything could be so new;
What do I wish for my loved ones?

Return to the way things were……… When we lived in a land of sunshine?

And where the sky is always blue, not a cloud in the sky, especially that Black one!

**Pharm Girl** · 08-14-2007, 05:46 PM

Masks and wigs I have worn
Not one but many.
One for money, another for fame….
Then another for camouflage , and so on.
None knew my real self….
For I wear many masks
Was it for beauty or to hide?
No, it was for mere survival.

I had every thing that one could name,
And also a burdened soul.
Then I was removed from them all, exposing me…. I have nothing left, be it money or fame.

But I do have a lighter soul.

**Pharm Girl** · 08-14-2007, 05:50 PM

Life got rough and the road seemed longer than I expected
And there seemed to be only a dim light
The dreams I had somehow got lost
I will never give up the fight
When I look in the mirror I see a strang look in my eyes…

There is need to run and hide

Never forget who you are and what you’ve done. Always remember wherever you go you’ll find that I was there before you…… If you think about the life we once had.

Remember that the things that you took away! Those things that will never set you free.
Remember that I have the power within me
And a will that can never be broken.

I will survive and grow stronger
This much I know for fact
The angels in Heaven have spoken.

I’ll never give up on you
Never forget who you are
Always remember wherever you go
I was there before you…….

Who's watching your back……..?

**Pharm Girl** · 08-14-2007, 05:54 PM

~Daisy~

She was named after the daisy

That grows feral in the meadows

Difficult to control or eradicate

He loves me, he loves me not

She had traveled far and wide

On a quest meant only for heroic

Hindered only by the elements

He loves me, he loves me not

Certain she had found safe haven

The unspeakable unfolds

Deception and deceit

He loves me, he loves me not

Unaware that her world was coming to a halt

Her expedition begins again for a place to call home

He knows not what love is and for that I love him not!

**~~zero-shittola~~** · 08-14-2007, 07:31 PM

me like

**Pharm Girl** · 08-18-2007, 10:02 PM

This poem is a tribute to my grandmother who I loved/love more than life itself...~

As I sit here
Alone
Near the creek.....
Looking out across
The waters that seems to
Majestically play a role with the setting sun.

I close my eyes
And slowly start to peruse
Into the library of my mind~
To muster up all the images and audio,
Of you I can find
As I replay those images and sounds
In my mind and in my heart~
I start to reminisce......
First I laugh, then I cry......

And start to question HIM.

WHY?

Were you taken away from me.
So violently . . . So suddenly?
It seemed one minute you were here
Loving me
Hugging me.....
Encouraging me.....
And the next minute you were gone
As the flood gates open
And tears uncontrollably stream
Down my face
I am suddenly encapsulated
In a warm and loving embrace
I realize
That I am not alone
and
I finally understand
What you were trying to tell me
Even though my family tried to hurt me,
By stripping me of all your material possessions.
I thought kept you close to me
That they can never
Take away.....
Wash away.....
Give away.....
The most priceless possessions
That has been bestowed
Upon me Nanny is........
Memories

**~~Jake_Armstrong~~** · 08-18-2007, 11:07 PM

do you know the song "Gallileo" by the Indigo Girls? If not you should give it a listen.

**Pharm Girl** · 08-21-2007, 06:03 PM

Through the distorted lies, shall shine the eyes of truth!
These eyes see which they can't or won't!
All your hate and corruption sickens me.
Why can't they comprehend?
They write what they see, not what they know!
They await the blood.
My blood or of the liar and corruptor?
Will my blood make things right?
I have waited far too long.

**Pharm Girl** · 08-21-2007, 07:12 PM

I have never been really loved before
I wouldn't know what to expect
Im so scared to let myself fall......
Will it have a reverse effect?

You tell me what love is!

Some tell me to let go,
They say I should take a chance......
But who will catch me if I fall?

In spite of all that's happened
I choose not to choose!
I'll just run and hide......

My buddy was always by my side
I dont understand it, now he's resting eternally.
And I sit and cry.........
What is the reasoning for this and that?
Please tell me why......

**Pharm Girl** · 08-21-2007, 08:44 PM

I’m confused and just a bit frustrated!
Being loved and in a heartbeat hated.

Was there not enough lies?
Was I not sophisticated enough?
Enough disguises!
You are not a big enough prize!

As I stand here with all my faults……

What made me think I was so special?
That you could love me for me!

It's stupid, irrelevant, shameful and so arrogant

I’m no longer your victim, it can't be!
I'm free of you.

It's easy to ignore me, to ignore the thing you fear
and hold dear.

It's easy to reject me……
I don’t need you to protect me!
I can handle the pain.

For no one, not even you, will I hide……
You know what you need?
A woman like me, to do the deed.

You lied to me
You stole from me
That makes you insane!

I’m not confused anymore, just a little bit tired.

**Pharm Girl** · 09-10-2007, 07:44 PM

It doesn't interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for.
It doesn't interest me how old you are.
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive.

It does interest me to know which planets are squaring your moon.
I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow.
I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it.

It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true.
I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself.

I want to know if you can see beauty, even when it's not pretty, every day, and if you can source your own life from it’s mere presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine.

It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up, after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done.

It doesn't interest me to know or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand in the centre of the fire with me.

It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you, from the inside, when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.

08-12-2007, 06:19 PM	#21 (permalink)
Pharm Girl Looking for a Bone! Join Date: Feb 2006 Posts: 4,203 Blog Entries: 13 Thanks: 2,553 Thanked 1,009 Times in 783 Posts	Truthful statements Carry a lot of weight Sometimes a lot of pain Understood only When you read the words And, please understand the environment that I came from~ I'm not property nor an ornament, an appendage to any part of anybody’s body. I'm a human being, not a figment of someone’s imagination and all woman, yep, a real woman~ Forgiving myself for my limitations As I would and will forgive those Who would and will seek to limit my imagination or under estimate this little bird~ Always with a blended smoke at the end of my fingertips~ Have you ever climbed and stood on a mountaintop and felt your insignificance compared to the Creators plan? Now, when I look back at where I’ve been....~ I tend to see the bad memories last too long~ I no longer care of who did what to who or who was right or who was wrong~ Beauty and peace are out of place in a world that is filled to capacity with stress~ For in the rare silence is gestation of the Creators illuminations~ __________________ .....The Time has Come to 'Walk the Talk'.....~ ......A message for ALL from the Deer Tribe...~ It is a great journey — but you must do the walking and have the willingness to change and make the leap into the next level of human evolution. Become an inquisitive free thinking individual that takes responsibility for your life and the spiritual accountability to live life to the fullest. *Fuck the Monkeys* Last edited by Pharm Girl; 12-29-2009 at 08:03 AM.

08-13-2007, 05:17 PM	#22 (permalink)
Pharm Girl Looking for a Bone! Join Date: Feb 2006 Posts: 4,203 Blog Entries: 13 Thanks: 2,553 Thanked 1,009 Times in 783 Posts	Just look within your heart and find what makes you, you; I am sure if you should find that part that part will always do, so if you want to help me out, just be what makes you, you; then look around this world of yours and do, what you can do! Everyone has a talent or two, locked somewhere deep inside, the ultimate goal we each should have, is to find it and use in our life… To share this talent with others, who would share their talent with you, so each can build a lifetime dream, which what we all should do… A dream that spans from heart to heart, uninhibited from the start, which frees us from our broken past, with a dream connected to our task, which is what we’re actually here to do. When you dare to be that special part that actually makes you, you! __________________ .....The Time has Come to 'Walk the Talk'.....~ ......A message for ALL from the Deer Tribe...~ It is a great journey — but you must do the walking and have the willingness to change and make the leap into the next level of human evolution. Become an inquisitive free thinking individual that takes responsibility for your life and the spiritual accountability to live life to the fullest. *Fuck the Monkeys*

08-13-2007, 05:52 PM	#23 (permalink)
Pharm Girl Looking for a Bone! Join Date: Feb 2006 Posts: 4,203 Blog Entries: 13 Thanks: 2,553 Thanked 1,009 Times in 783 Posts	Five Little Senses Five little senses are all I need. To use when things are near or far. I use my eyes to look and see colour all around. I use my ears to hear sounds whether they be loud or soft. I use my nose to smell your sweet scent. I use my hands to touch both smooth and rough. I use my mouth to taste succulent savours. Five little senses standing between us. To see, hear, smell, touch and taste. The things I need~ __________________ .....The Time has Come to 'Walk the Talk'.....~ ......A message for ALL from the Deer Tribe...~ It is a great journey — but you must do the walking and have the willingness to change and make the leap into the next level of human evolution. Become an inquisitive free thinking individual that takes responsibility for your life and the spiritual accountability to live life to the fullest. *Fuck the Monkeys*

08-13-2007, 05:56 PM	#24 (permalink)
Pharm Girl Looking for a Bone! Join Date: Feb 2006 Posts: 4,203 Blog Entries: 13 Thanks: 2,553 Thanked 1,009 Times in 783 Posts	Show me your mysteries and I'll show you mine We’ll embark outside this space and time. Clasp my hand we'll join the dance divine, We’ll flow gently towards eternal rhyme. Tell me your fantasies and I'll tell you mine Show me your ecstasies that flow like wine. Together we'll reach the highest peak, Drink deeply from the spring of time. Far beyond heaven and hell. Bare your heart to me and I'll give you mine Though we might be flying blind. Embrace the fire and ice~ __________________ .....The Time has Come to 'Walk the Talk'.....~ ......A message for ALL from the Deer Tribe...~ It is a great journey — but you must do the walking and have the willingness to change and make the leap into the next level of human evolution. Become an inquisitive free thinking individual that takes responsibility for your life and the spiritual accountability to live life to the fullest. *Fuck the Monkeys*

08-13-2007, 06:02 PM	#25 (permalink)
Pharm Girl Looking for a Bone! Join Date: Feb 2006 Posts: 4,203 Blog Entries: 13 Thanks: 2,553 Thanked 1,009 Times in 783 Posts	I mean, for so long I've had to hide what is surging inside and I'm tired..........~ Tired of having to portray the fake me so you can see who you think I should be. With this guise I have to mask my desires and the naughty thoughts that I sire in secret. Can I share them with you? Should I? I promise it's not as bad as you may think! I told of my feelings of being betrayed by those I trusted and having to hide it. Through the pen is where it will begin to be extinguished. ~I'm not through~ I want to explore just one stanza more of my life and be prepare for what is to come. All is summed up in the chapters that I've wrote. As I stand fully here, now we will truly see~ __________________ .....The Time has Come to 'Walk the Talk'.....~ ......A message for ALL from the Deer Tribe...~ It is a great journey — but you must do the walking and have the willingness to change and make the leap into the next level of human evolution. Become an inquisitive free thinking individual that takes responsibility for your life and the spiritual accountability to live life to the fullest. *Fuck the Monkeys*

08-13-2007, 07:05 PM	#26 (permalink)
Pharm Girl Looking for a Bone! Join Date: Feb 2006 Posts: 4,203 Blog Entries: 13 Thanks: 2,553 Thanked 1,009 Times in 783 Posts	A Loop......~ When things go wrong, as they did. When the road I trudged seemed all up hill, When the funds were low, and the debts were high, And I forgot how to smile, only how to sigh. I got down a bit, Rest was a must, but I didn't quit! Life is odd with it's twists and turns, As everyone of us sometimes has to learn. And many a failure turns about. What he may have won had he stuck it out: Don't give up, don’t quit! Success is failure turned inside out, The blackened hue of the clouds of doubt, And I could never can tell how close I was, It may of been near when it seemed so far; I stuck to the fight when hardest hit! It's then when things seemed worse, I never quit……~ And don’t you either! __________________ .....The Time has Come to 'Walk the Talk'.....~ ......A message for ALL from the Deer Tribe...~ It is a great journey — but you must do the walking and have the willingness to change and make the leap into the next level of human evolution. Become an inquisitive free thinking individual that takes responsibility for your life and the spiritual accountability to live life to the fullest. *Fuck the Monkeys*

08-13-2007, 08:12 PM	#27 (permalink)
Pharm Girl Looking for a Bone! Join Date: Feb 2006 Posts: 4,203 Blog Entries: 13 Thanks: 2,553 Thanked 1,009 Times in 783 Posts	Help me~ Get out of the way, I need to see my buddy I haven't seen him in a while He was gone, he wasn't there. The last time I saw him He was in bad shape His heart was all messed up His head was in a state, he was not a pretty site. He had coke in his eyes And heroine in his blood His whole body was leaning forward He just wanted to puke No, he wanted to die! I left him alone in his catastrophe What do you do when all you want to do is run? I'm sorry, so sorry! I didn't want to leave you when you needed me the most. I was weak, not tough at all! I could hear his screams. I had, had enough. I could hear my friend screaming. Was it an overdose again? Yes....... R.I.P. dear Buddy, I will always remember you by your favorite song~ Tassez-vous d'là Tassez-vous de d'là y faut que j'voye mon chum Ça fait longtemps que j'l'ai pas vu Y'était parti y'était pas là La dernière fois que j'y ai parlé Son cœur était mal amanché Sa tête était dans un étau y'était pas beau Y avait d'la coke dans 'es yeux Y avait d'l'héro dans l'sang Y avait tout son corps qu penchait par en avant Y avait envie d'vomir Y avait envie d'mourir Qu'est-ce qu'on fait dans ce temps là Moi j'avais l'goût d'm'enfuir Je l'ai laissé tout seul au bord de la catastrophe Pardonne-moé, pardonne-moé J'ai pas voulu, j'ai pas voulu Pas voulu t'abandonner dans le moment le plus rough Je suis le lache des laches pas le tough des tough Moé j'fais mon chemin dans la foule En espérant qu'une chose c'est voir ton visage Et de t'entendre crier: J'en ai plein mon casse mais c'pas encore l'overdose Aidez-moé, aidez-moé Avec ta voix immense et ton cœur qui explose Aidez-moé, aidez-moé Moé j'fais mon chemin dans la foule En espérant qu'une chose c'est voir ton visage Et de t'entendre crier: J'en ai plein mon casse mais c'pas encore l'overdose Aidez-moé, aidez-moé __________________ .....The Time has Come to 'Walk the Talk'.....~ ......A message for ALL from the Deer Tribe...~ It is a great journey — but you must do the walking and have the willingness to change and make the leap into the next level of human evolution. Become an inquisitive free thinking individual that takes responsibility for your life and the spiritual accountability to live life to the fullest. *Fuck the Monkeys*

08-13-2007, 08:34 PM	#28 (permalink)
Pharm Girl Looking for a Bone! Join Date: Feb 2006 Posts: 4,203 Blog Entries: 13 Thanks: 2,553 Thanked 1,009 Times in 783 Posts	Oh Great Spirit Of the Indian People Hear my words For they are words that come From the heart, soul and mind. Oh Great Spirit Be my mind, Be my eyes, Be my ears, Be my heart, Be my soul, So that I may walk With dignity and pride. Oh Great Spirit I am a child of Thee~ You know of me. For I am of your people. I am Native, An Indian of the Circle of Life A prisoner of my own demise~ In my own Land! Oh Great Spirit, Of the Indian people, Hear my words For they are for you. They are of you. You are my way of life........` In the Circle of Life. __________________ .....The Time has Come to 'Walk the Talk'.....~ ......A message for ALL from the Deer Tribe...~ It is a great journey — but you must do the walking and have the willingness to change and make the leap into the next level of human evolution. Become an inquisitive free thinking individual that takes responsibility for your life and the spiritual accountability to live life to the fullest. *Fuck the Monkeys*

08-14-2007, 05:37 PM	#29 (permalink)
Pharm Girl Looking for a Bone! Join Date: Feb 2006 Posts: 4,203 Blog Entries: 13 Thanks: 2,553 Thanked 1,009 Times in 783 Posts	~Lured~ They'd better take what they can get…… I’ve lured them with juicy bait. The hook, the line and the sinker. Together, I've got them in the net…. Not one of them a thinker. __________________ .....The Time has Come to 'Walk the Talk'.....~ ......A message for ALL from the Deer Tribe...~ It is a great journey — but you must do the walking and have the willingness to change and make the leap into the next level of human evolution. Become an inquisitive free thinking individual that takes responsibility for your life and the spiritual accountability to live life to the fullest. *Fuck the Monkeys*

08-14-2007, 05:41 PM	#30 (permalink)
Pharm Girl Looking for a Bone! Join Date: Feb 2006 Posts: 4,203 Blog Entries: 13 Thanks: 2,553 Thanked 1,009 Times in 783 Posts	Somewhere the sun is shinning Somewhere the sky is ultra blue Somewhere the flowers are in bloom….. Everything could be so new; What do I wish for my loved ones? Return to the way things were……… When we lived in a land of sunshine? And where the sky is always blue, not a cloud in the sky, especially that Black one! __________________ .....The Time has Come to 'Walk the Talk'.....~ ......A message for ALL from the Deer Tribe...~ It is a great journey — but you must do the walking and have the willingness to change and make the leap into the next level of human evolution. Become an inquisitive free thinking individual that takes responsibility for your life and the spiritual accountability to live life to the fullest. *Fuck the Monkeys*

08-14-2007, 05:46 PM	#31 (permalink)
Pharm Girl Looking for a Bone! Join Date: Feb 2006 Posts: 4,203 Blog Entries: 13 Thanks: 2,553 Thanked 1,009 Times in 783 Posts	Masks and wigs I have worn Not one but many. One for money, another for fame…. Then another for camouflage , and so on. None knew my real self…. For I wear many masks Was it for beauty or to hide? No, it was for mere survival. I had every thing that one could name, And also a burdened soul. Then I was removed from them all, exposing me…. I have nothing left, be it money or fame. But I do have a lighter soul. __________________ .....The Time has Come to 'Walk the Talk'.....~ ......A message for ALL from the Deer Tribe...~ It is a great journey — but you must do the walking and have the willingness to change and make the leap into the next level of human evolution. Become an inquisitive free thinking individual that takes responsibility for your life and the spiritual accountability to live life to the fullest. *Fuck the Monkeys*

08-14-2007, 05:50 PM	#32 (permalink)
Pharm Girl Looking for a Bone! Join Date: Feb 2006 Posts: 4,203 Blog Entries: 13 Thanks: 2,553 Thanked 1,009 Times in 783 Posts	Life got rough and the road seemed longer than I expected And there seemed to be only a dim light The dreams I had somehow got lost I will never give up the fight When I look in the mirror I see a strang look in my eyes… There is need to run and hide Never forget who you are and what you’ve done. Always remember wherever you go you’ll find that I was there before you…… If you think about the life we once had. Remember that the things that you took away! Those things that will never set you free. Remember that I have the power within me And a will that can never be broken. I will survive and grow stronger This much I know for fact The angels in Heaven have spoken. I’ll never give up on you Never forget who you are Always remember wherever you go I was there before you……. Who's watching your back……..? __________________ .....The Time has Come to 'Walk the Talk'.....~ ......A message for ALL from the Deer Tribe...~ It is a great journey — but you must do the walking and have the willingness to change and make the leap into the next level of human evolution. Become an inquisitive free thinking individual that takes responsibility for your life and the spiritual accountability to live life to the fullest. *Fuck the Monkeys*

08-14-2007, 05:54 PM	#33 (permalink)
Pharm Girl Looking for a Bone! Join Date: Feb 2006 Posts: 4,203 Blog Entries: 13 Thanks: 2,553 Thanked 1,009 Times in 783 Posts	~Daisy~ She was named after the daisy That grows feral in the meadows Difficult to control or eradicate He loves me, he loves me not She had traveled far and wide On a quest meant only for heroic Hindered only by the elements He loves me, he loves me not Certain she had found safe haven The unspeakable unfolds Deception and deceit He loves me, he loves me not Unaware that her world was coming to a halt Her expedition begins again for a place to call home He knows not what love is and for that I love him not! __________________ .....The Time has Come to 'Walk the Talk'.....~ ......A message for ALL from the Deer Tribe...~ It is a great journey — but you must do the walking and have the willingness to change and make the leap into the next level of human evolution. Become an inquisitive free thinking individual that takes responsibility for your life and the spiritual accountability to live life to the fullest. *Fuck the Monkeys*

08-14-2007, 07:31 PM	#34 (permalink)
~~zero-shittola~~ Banned Join Date: Jul 2007 Location: in da barnyard Posts: 105 Thanks: 0 Thanked 0 Times in 0 Posts	me like

08-18-2007, 10:02 PM	#35 (permalink)
Pharm Girl Looking for a Bone! Join Date: Feb 2006 Posts: 4,203 Blog Entries: 13 Thanks: 2,553 Thanked 1,009 Times in 783 Posts	This poem is a tribute to my grandmother who I loved/love more than life itself...~ As I sit here Alone Near the creek..... Looking out across The waters that seems to Majestically play a role with the setting sun. I close my eyes And slowly start to peruse Into the library of my mind~ To muster up all the images and audio, Of you I can find As I replay those images and sounds In my mind and in my heart~ I start to reminisce...... First I laugh, then I cry...... And start to question HIM. WHY? Were you taken away from me. So violently . . . So suddenly? It seemed one minute you were here Loving me Hugging me..... Encouraging me..... And the next minute you were gone As the flood gates open And tears uncontrollably stream Down my face I am suddenly encapsulated In a warm and loving embrace I realize That I am not alone and I finally understand What you were trying to tell me Even though my family tried to hurt me, By stripping me of all your material possessions. I thought kept you close to me That they can never Take away..... Wash away..... Give away..... The most priceless possessions That has been bestowed Upon me Nanny is........ Memories

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08-18-2007, 11:07 PM	#36 (permalink)
~~Jake_Armstrong~~ Banned Join Date: Jul 2007 Location: elsewhere Posts: 1,115 Thanks: 0 Thanked 5 Times in 5 Posts	do you know the song "Gallileo" by the Indigo Girls? If not you should give it a listen.

08-21-2007, 06:03 PM	#37 (permalink)
Pharm Girl Looking for a Bone! Join Date: Feb 2006 Posts: 4,203 Blog Entries: 13 Thanks: 2,553 Thanked 1,009 Times in 783 Posts	Through the distorted lies, shall shine the eyes of truth! These eyes see which they can't or won't! All your hate and corruption sickens me. Why can't they comprehend? They write what they see, not what they know! They await the blood. My blood or of the liar and corruptor? Will my blood make things right? I have waited far too long. __________________ .....The Time has Come to 'Walk the Talk'.....~ ......A message for ALL from the Deer Tribe...~ It is a great journey — but you must do the walking and have the willingness to change and make the leap into the next level of human evolution. Become an inquisitive free thinking individual that takes responsibility for your life and the spiritual accountability to live life to the fullest. *Fuck the Monkeys* Last edited by Pharm Girl; 08-21-2007 at 07:14 PM.

08-21-2007, 07:12 PM	#38 (permalink)
Pharm Girl Looking for a Bone! Join Date: Feb 2006 Posts: 4,203 Blog Entries: 13 Thanks: 2,553 Thanked 1,009 Times in 783 Posts	I have never been really loved before I wouldn't know what to expect Im so scared to let myself fall...... Will it have a reverse effect? You tell me what love is! Some tell me to let go, They say I should take a chance...... But who will catch me if I fall? In spite of all that's happened I choose not to choose! I'll just run and hide...... My buddy was always by my side I dont understand it, now he's resting eternally. And I sit and cry......... What is the reasoning for this and that? Please tell me why...... __________________ .....The Time has Come to 'Walk the Talk'.....~ ......A message for ALL from the Deer Tribe...~ It is a great journey — but you must do the walking and have the willingness to change and make the leap into the next level of human evolution. Become an inquisitive free thinking individual that takes responsibility for your life and the spiritual accountability to live life to the fullest. *Fuck the Monkeys*

08-21-2007, 08:44 PM	#39 (permalink)
Pharm Girl Looking for a Bone! Join Date: Feb 2006 Posts: 4,203 Blog Entries: 13 Thanks: 2,553 Thanked 1,009 Times in 783 Posts	I’m confused and just a bit frustrated! Being loved and in a heartbeat hated. Was there not enough lies? Was I not sophisticated enough? Enough disguises! You are not a big enough prize! As I stand here with all my faults…… What made me think I was so special? That you could love me for me! It's stupid, irrelevant, shameful and so arrogant I’m no longer your victim, it can't be! I'm free of you. It's easy to ignore me, to ignore the thing you fear and hold dear. It's easy to reject me…… I don’t need you to protect me! I can handle the pain. For no one, not even you, will I hide…… You know what you need? A woman like me, to do the deed. You lied to me You stole from me That makes you insane! I’m not confused anymore, just a little bit tired. __________________ .....The Time has Come to 'Walk the Talk'.....~ ......A message for ALL from the Deer Tribe...~ It is a great journey — but you must do the walking and have the willingness to change and make the leap into the next level of human evolution. Become an inquisitive free thinking individual that takes responsibility for your life and the spiritual accountability to live life to the fullest. *Fuck the Monkeys*

09-10-2007, 07:44 PM	#40 (permalink)
Pharm Girl Looking for a Bone! Join Date: Feb 2006 Posts: 4,203 Blog Entries: 13 Thanks: 2,553 Thanked 1,009 Times in 783 Posts	It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for. It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive. It does interest me to know which planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow. I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it. It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself. I want to know if you can see beauty, even when it's not pretty, every day, and if you can source your own life from it’s mere presence. I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine. It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up, after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done. It doesn't interest me to know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the centre of the fire with me. It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you, from the inside, when all else falls away. I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.